Ready for a change but need support

Hi everyone!

I am new here and so thankful to find these forums. I have been struggling with binge eating disorder for so long -- I just didn't know what it was. I have been fortunate enough to maintain a pretty normal weight for most of my life due to high levels of activity.. but now my health is starting to fade.

Last year, I got really sick. I was covered in rashes, couldn't stand up, and was hospitalized for four days. After numerous blood tests and endoscopies and other procedures, I was diagnosed with Celiac. I may also have Lupus, too, but I have to retest for that because my positive ANA was only slightly elevated at that time. Anyways, I was diagnosed with Celiac and thought that would be the end.

Except it hasn't been. My BED has been out-of-control in the meantime -- and I can't stop eating any type of food, even food containing gluten. This could literally be killing me, and I can't stop. I've spent $250 in the last five days on food alone and am running up tons of bills.

I know the logic, I know the science, I know what to do. And I'm really, really desperate to do it.

But I need help.

Hi there. I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling. It's good that you want to do this, though - that says a lot. In addition to the forums, do you have any 3D support? That helps as far as accountability goes, and also talking to people about what's going on face to face can be more comforting/warm than someone online.

Just take it slow, though, and you'll get there. Keep us posted!

hayhsu, I'm sorry to hear you're suffering. I know what you're going through with regards to the binge eating. In fact I binged today clocking up almost *mod edit* calories. In fact, I seem to be bingeing more now than I ever have and have gained a lot of weight in a short amount of time. What I found useful when I had binge eating problems a few years back was therapy. I had CBT and it seemed to help me in understanding why I binge. I have depression, anxiety and OCD which also affect my eating habits. I guess I binge to fill an unfillable void. For me, a binge only ends when I'm disgusted with myself, not when I'm full. I too am a normal weight but unlike you haven't always been so. I went from being on the verge of being obese to anorexic back to being a normal weight again. My relationship with food has been distorted for as long as I can remember but I've learnt to deal with them much better than I used to. There is help out there and it does work but you've got to seek it. And of course, forums like this help in addition to forums like myfitnesspal or caloriecount where you can track your calories and use forums to discuss your concerns with others in the same or a similar boat. Best of luck.