I can't wait any longer...

Hello-

I've never done anything like this before and to tell you the truth, I've never really shared my problems with people outside of my family. I'm not exactly sure how to go about this but I'm trying my best.

Although I don't think I have a major binge eating disorder, I do have a problem with binge eating. Like many people, I want to lose weight. I've wanted to lose weight for the past year or two but have always failed. This year has been very difficult both physically and emotionally. My binge eating pattern usually follows as so:

I limit myself to 600 calories a day with exercise. I do really well with this for a couple of days and sometimes a whole week. Then something happens and I eat what seems to be the entire kitchen.

I realize that this isn't healthy as I have seen the doctor more times this year than I have in my entire life. I have had a variety of health problems and I know that staying healthy is important, but I cannot seem to get beyond the idea that I don't look as nice as I should.

I thought that I was getting a lot better until today. For the last 9 days I had limited myself to 600 calories and lost 8 lbs. But today I was so hungry and was really feeling down and I ruined everything. My mother says that I won't be able to figure things out until the end of the year when I have more time but I can't wait that long. I feel very alone, very helpless, and I have no idea what to do. I've realize that I am not alone with my problem but I always feel that way and right now, I feel like it's not worth trying anymore.

I have been in a similar cycle to yours recently. I exercise too and purposefully ate less calories than I should per day. However, we eventually run out of energy and a binge then crosses our minds. Then, with all of that 'binged' food in us, we gain enough stored energy to last another two or three days of eating less calories than normal.


How I broke this cycle was by ensuring that I ate less and less during every successive binge. I suggest that you try this. It is much easier than simply cutting out the binge altogether. In your mind, if you accept that the binge will occur then things become a little easier for you. Indeed, you will come to control the binge, instead of it controlling you.