here i go again

i've binged again.......how is it that this voice in my head will tell me to just eat now and i'll fix it later..i always listen ...its like i dont think and go into a trance.

its gotten so much worse, i forget what it was like being normal..i cant take this anymore..it hurts to smile. it hurts to live .

its pathetic that i'm crying while i'm writing this

so......come back in 10 yrs and i'll still be going through the same thing. thats how i feel.

i know exactly how you feel. I binged today and right before it happened i said to myself "its ok, you can be good tomorrow" and now i feel so bad. I cant go a few days without it happening! i dont know what to do!

seriously though...its soo much worse...i'm getting scared at how depressed this is making me ...i cant go get help because we dont have insurance.

i dont know ...pls someone give me a magic pill that will make it all go away

it's so hard, and it hurts so bad to feel like you've let yourself down. sweetheart, you are not alone. i go through the same thing, it's like something takes over when i've been really good and i feel like such a nasty cow afterwards, so disappointed. sometimes i feel like i've failed myself in the sense that i don't eve have the willpower to pass up whatever's in the kitchen.

you're not alone. i'm sitting right there beside you.

Hey,


I also go through the same things as ye but the fact that we feel that we can "fix it later" means that we are still hopeful for our future. mandyfloakker, there is a very little chance that in ten years you will be going through the same thing. Nothing - absolutely nothing - lasts forever.

Kevster