Other psychological problems

Since I have got my eating disorders (Bulimia, Binge-Eating, Anorexia) I have got many more problems. I've been cutting myself for nearly one year now. Sometimes I do other self injuring things like punching myself (enough to bruise) or biting myself.
A real problem is that I am very depressive. My life makes no sense. The only reason why I stand up each mornig is to starve, binge or hurt myself. These things are my life! A really sad life...

Do you have problems like this?

I have gone through all of these things. I feel that you are simply moving on from one destructive path to another and each time you are trying to find something to take the pain away. You are looking for a 'muse'.


I cannot say which came first for you (The depression or the binge-eating) but you have to start thinking about what the root to your problem is.

my actions are a lot like yours, i was anorexic last yr and now i binge eat...i'm not over weight but i feel like i am , have no self esteem and nearly every day i think about dying..

its gotten a lot worse lately, i feel like i 'm maybe ready to get help and fix myself ..nobody is going to do it but you..sure you feel safe when you are at binge eating or starving ..but the truth is that you and i are wasting our lives..we should be able to go out and eat with friends and not be terrified..

i hope knowing that others are going through the same things is some kind of comfort..
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Hiya,

I just wanted to say I've been an anorexic/bulimic/compulsive overeater since I was 14 (I'm 26 now). It has gotten better in the last three years but worse again in the last 3 months. I've noticed that there is a diret correlation between my self-esteem and my binge eating behavior. So my tip is: do something empowering that will increase your self-esteem. For me the improvement started with a Survival Week organized by my school. It showed me that I was capable of a lot more than I thought I was. Step 2 was changing environment: I went to school in a foreign country where no one knew me and started over. I used to be an introvert, I became totally extrovert. It helped me break bad habits and realizing there are more things to life then eating. And things only improved from then on.
These last three months, I changed country again. But unfortunately I moved to Switzerland where people are not very open and I moved in with the most amazingly selfish person on earth. This has totally shattered my self-esteem. Even sex is only about him. I'm just a participant. Not surprisingly I have started binge eating again and overcompensating by exercising... Back into the vicious circle. What keeps me going is the willingness to fight. I'm not going to let one person shatter the self-esteem that took years to build. I want to be strong and fight this and not let someone else influence how I feel about myself. And worse come to worse, in three months I'm moving to the US to do my Ph.D.
So what I wanted to say with this long story is that you first need to use the external environment to start building your self-confidence and as soon as you are strong enough, try to stand on your own two feet and not let anyone throw you off balance. Try to break the vicious circle of depression - binge eating - depression to learn there are other things out there and that life is worth living. Once you break the circle once it becomes easier and easier. Relapsing is not bad, it happens to all of us. It's the ability to get out of it again that makes a difference. The important thing to remember is that you are not alone out there.

That's quite an inspiring post A.. It's a pity that you will leave Switzerland with that bit of negativity because I have heard that Switzerland is a great, independant nation. I currently live in Ireland.


People like you are immensely inspirationl to me. You have travelled around and aren't letting your problems thwart what you want to do in life. Tell me, where did you go to school? What will your PhD be in?