Post your binges Here to acknowledge them

Today, my eating has been okay. I haven't eaten the best stuff, and I have eaten too much, but I believe I'm in my fat/calorie range for the day (SparkPeople is having technical problems, so I can't log my food lol). Howevr, even though I am within my calorie range, I still am binging. I still eat fast, hardly tasting it, big bites, and the highlight of my day is eating. I'm disgusted by myself, but I can't seem to stop.

One day at a time, I suppose.

Just take one day at a time. I'm struggling with this too.
i am able to get through a few weeks without binging now. I tell myself that someone's gonna get really mad if I do it, so that helps me stay away.

I did the whole writing down everything but didn't work for me. Seeing CBT currentlybut not working. Trying to find triggers but I dont have ONE reason I have a Million. Anything is an excuse. I CAN GO WITHOUT EATING BUT ONCE i START NO MATTER WHETHER its good or junk food I cannot stop. Has anybody else been like this?

It's such a good idea to post our binges here to take a good look at our food choices! Back in the day when I had a healthy diet I posted my daily food intake in another forum, but I don't do it anymore out of embarrassment The day I relapsed in my sugar addiction and started having huge binges again was the day I stopped posting in that thread. So without further ado, here it goes:

- 4 slices of rye and wheat bread and one Wasa cracker with a lot of mayo and ham
- 1 piece of tiramisu
- 2 different dessert cups (moussey-like)
- 1 bag of white chocolate-covered rocks
- 1 chocolate éclair
- 2 non-fat flavoured yogurts with a lot of diced almond
- A lot of little almond biscuits
- 2 slices of havarti cheese
- Some hard cheese

Terrible day! Just like these past days. I find it really hard to break a cycle once I'm chin-deep in it I'm so thankful I found this forum!!

unsure1 wrote:I did the whole writing down everything but didn't work for me. Seeing CBT currentlybut not working. Trying to find triggers but I dont have ONE reason I have a Million. Anything is an excuse. I CAN GO WITHOUT EATING BUT ONCE i START NO MATTER WHETHER its good or junk food I cannot stop. Has anybody else been like this?

Unsure, try seeing it as a battle. Design a plan and set yourself a challenge. Write down a list of healthy eating habits you would like to adopt and make it your mission to follow what's on that list to the letter.

It is really hard to build a new habit - I'm not going to lie to you - but the good thing about habits is precisely that: they're habits So when you are finding it really hard to stick to a healthier eating plan, just have confidence that if you stick it out and don't give up, one day you'll become really comfortable in your new routine and it will be just second nature. Trust me!

But all feels strange in the beginning. The hardest part is when we start to change our bad habits, because our bodies are still protesting and saying to us: 'Why are you depriving me of my favourite treats?' But they'll shut up with time and stop asking for their fix.

It seems to me that you may have a food addiction. I'm kind of addicted to food as well, specially sugar and carbs. I'm going to give you and advice that many people don't agree with but I think is really suitable for people like us: if there's something that triggers you a lot, avoid that like the plague. Do no set yourself up for failure by deluding yourself into believing that you can learn to eat that in moderation. Last Christmas I had milk chocolate for the first time in over 2 years, and half a year later I'm still battling my relapse in binge eating, all as a consequence of that

A food addiction is an addiction as any other. And the thing is - you can never beat an addiction. You can never stop being addicted to those things that provoke such a strong reaction in your body. You just have to learn how to live with it. We are very high-maintenance, us addicts. And once you get into good habits, never let your guard down. People used to make fun of me or pester me about my eating habits when I was eating clean, saying that I was really exaggerate. Well, now I tried to be more 'fun' and let my hair down a little bit regarding food, and look what has happened now. I am the one battling the consequences, not them, so don't listen to what other people say.

And to top it all off, food addiction is even more difficult to deal with than any other kind of addiction. You can't just abstain from food completely, like you would do with drugs - we have to expose ourselves to our triggers several times a day. And it's for this very same reason why we have to fight our addiction with all of what we have, because we can not live controlled by it 24/7!!

Never stop trying to build better habits. We'll probably fall off the wagon from time to time, but the important thing here is to jump right back in! I'm currently fighting a very bad binge cycle that I have gotten myself into, but I so want to get back in that wagon!