binging and starving

Hey everyone,
WOW! I can really identify with you guys, I've never really talked to anyone before that had the same sort of eating patterns as me: "purging" through starving. Guest is right, though- just because we don't throw up doesn't mean that our cycle of binge-starve isn't an eating disorder and isn't serious. We should ALL be getting help, because any eating disorder is basically impossible to stop without some medical or psychological support. I believe that if we really work at it, we can break these patterns and eventually be able to eat balanced meals and be at peace with ourselves. Something exciting happened today, and I need to share it with someone who will "get" why it's important to me, so here goes:
This week, for the first time in I don't know how long, I was able to eat a normal amount of food, ENJOY IT WITHOUT OBSESSING, and then not do any sort of purging activity afterwards. For me, this seems like a miracle. It's been a small taste (no pun intended) of what life can be like for me FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE if I keep working hard to get past this. I'm seeing a nutritionist and a Therapist, and I think it's finally starting to pay off. I don't mean to brag, I'm just saying this hoping that maybe it will give some of you some hope. Meanwhile, I'm astonished.
Good luck, everyone. WE CAN OVERCOME THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lots of love,
drama_queen

I know this was posted several months ago but I just had to reply because I do the exact same thing. I have lost 133 lbs in 12 months. I started out doing it the healthy way then I discovered fasting about mid year and now that I am hooked I find I take it to the extreme more and more. Now somewhere deep in my mind I must feel it is "ok" to binge because I have discovered a way of keeping the weight off.

Stee2437 described the guilt of it all perfectly. It's like, ok I failed myself by going off plan so since I messed up today already I might as well live it up and get it all out of my system while I can because tomorrow there will be nothing!

I have wondered myself about the Bulimia thing, if it is possible that is what I have too. I'm sure there are different degrees but I think most people, like me, believe that you aren't Bulimic unless you purge afterwards. "Guests" post pretty much defies that then. And then drama queen seconded that. So I guess anything is possible.

A purge is any abnormal action taken after a binge. It can be self-induced vomitting, rigorous exercise, starvation, drinking copious amounts of water, or others. If you don't purge then you probably have what is known as Eating Disorder NOS (Not Otherwise Specified).


It is and it isn't okay to binge: It is OK if it doesn't bother, upset you, and make you depressed; It ISN'T okay if if it DOES bother, upset you, and make you depressed. In the majority of our cases I feel that it does bother us and therefore it is a problem. If it wasn't a problem then why are we posting here?... ...

... ...The common problem with losing enormous amounts of weight as you have done is where to stop.


Take care,
Kevin.