Laziness and AvPD

I used to have a very high drive for doing things. I was doing very well in school, I was very adamant about getting papers done, and showed good work ethic with wanting it to be done correctly. I was consistently practicing my writing with the intention to eventually get published. I was much more active physically. I was confident in where I wanted to head in life. And even though I was scared at the prospect of getting a job, I was actively filling out applications.

But as things got worse over these past couple of years, I developed into what could be described as lazy. But I think the problem is rather just a lack of drive or ambition. I feel lazy and that I just don't feel like doing things, I do a slack job in school, I haven't written in months, I don't feel like doing anything productive, mostly just sit on the computer, and I have no confidence in getting a job, the thought of filling out apps is too much for me. But as I think about it, I think it's all down to the avoidance. I feel inadequate, I feel no confidence or drive, and I want to avoid any sort of rejection or failure. It's not laziness, it's fear disguised as laziness.

- EGD.

I sometimes think I am lazy. But on the other hand, I know I am not. So there are markers of true lazy people that I don't have.

For instance: I do have a full time job and at work, I am considered a producer. I often come up with innovations (although I suppose you could argue that is so I can cut out some steps). I have a home and I can say it is pretty darn clean. Although I did hire someone to help with the errands because I hated doing them.

Overall I agree with the poster up thread that I just need more time and energy. I feel like everyone else on the planet is going at 140% of my energy / action level. I do things but often much slower than everyone else and much more careful. I agree that it is and energy level type of thing... perhaps that is another reason we are avoidant. I often feel I can maintain a conversation only for a certain period of time and then, I just can't any longer.

Up until I was 20, I would always postpone my work for school, but I always managed to get it done. But from my 20th, I've been slacking. I just can't seem to get myself to do things. I also hate having to go to school to meet with a coordinator or whatever to set up my training and such. I didn't use to have problems with this, but now even the idea of having to go to the station, take the train, take the tram and walk to school seems so much. And then I have to see a person I never met and I don't know how to deal with.

In other work, I've always been lazy. If someone asks me to vacuum or take off the dust or whatever, I will do it. I won't like it, but I'll do it. It never occurs to me as I walk around the house, though. I never think, "Hey, this room needs dusting". I'm not sure if that's me being lazy, but it probably is. Whenever I read about or hear people say they can't sit still and need to do something all the time, I can't relate. I'd be perfectly happy just reading books and watching TV all day.

I am terribly lazy. The only tthing I seem to be consistent in.

-- Fri Feb 08, 2013 5:57 am --

I am terribly lazy. The only tthing I seem to be consistent in.

I think most of us suffer from depression and associated maladies to go along with the AVPD. Depression saps a person's motivation, memory, and ability to concentrate. So yeah, it feels like "lazy" but I don't think it is.

im lazy too if its not important enough. are they seoarate or related???? i wonder
wife says i dont care about $#%^.

I hate our when people call me lazy, I just can't give them the real reason why I don't want to go out, although I have to admit that I've gotten used to this life which made me legit lazy

I'm a lazy cucking funt and proud to be so. 'Laziness' so-called, is a form of rebellion against a corporate dominated society that would have everyone conform to their values, and their definition of what it means to be a human being. ###$ that. My awkwardness with people. my self-consciousness, and social ineptitude, my refusal to accept their version of what it means to be a 'normal' person, are all small but significant repudiations of their right to tell me how I should be. ###$ the so-called work ethic. Who profits most from our belief in that bollocks. I'm lazy and proud to be so if it means denying the corporate bastards one extra dollar to enhance their profits. ###$ them.

nomorebollocks wrote:I'm a lazy cucking funt and proud to be so. 'Laziness' so-called, is a form of rebellion against a corporate dominated society that would have everyone conform to their values, and their definition of what it means to be a human being. ###$ that. My awkwardness with people. my self-consciousness, and social ineptitude, my refusal to accept their version of what it means to be a 'normal' person, are all small but significant repudiations of their right to tell me how I should be. ###$ the so-called work ethic. Who profits most from our belief in that bollocks. I'm lazy and proud to be so if it means denying the corporate bastards one extra dollar to enhance their profits. ###$ them.

Wow you sound exactly like I did 1 year ago. I sort of miss those days, being so anti-corporate and rebellious filled a huge hole in my life and made me feel a lot better than normal.

"The thing is, Bob, it's not that I'm lazy, it's that I just don't care."

And just like Peter Gibbons, it is a problem of motivation. I know what I should be doing, and I can tell myself all day that I need to do it, but when it comes down to it, I just can't push myself to get anything done.