by no name » Thu Nov 17, 2005 12:18 am
*loner- yup, i'm finally embracing my loneriness
*limits social interaction- yea, sometimes it just isn't worth it, and people say that i'll regret not going but i usually dont regret it
*does not express emotions easily- hell yea, people dont understand that and my dad doesnt express emotion that much and then my mum hassles him for getting excited, i have been hassled too... it doesnt help!!, and i hate getting presents if i have to open them in front of people
*shy- always have been but it wasnt so much a problem in primary school when i'd been with my class since i was 5
*i only like people with issues, i like some happy people (if they also have issues), just not the millions of fake ones
*if i get happy or excited about something most times i will feel equally bad about it like a day later
*i dont have much attractiveness to hide by dressing down but i do with i could dress more interesting, but i dont want to be looked at funny
*weird?-only the not talking and not knowing what to say would make me weird, and not wanting to go out etc
*i've pretty much ruled out having a relationship but i've got a couple of good friends, and another couple people i talk to on msn, i got my family too
*neglects self, has low self esteem issues, poor self image- yup, gotta love the pjs
*can't find meaning in life- i'm trying, but it's hard to save the world when u cant interact with it
hard to get to know- of course, but i can be damn talkative with some people
*i'm not so emotionally numb, i used to be and i hated it, i like music, books, movies that make me feel, so i'm "prone to focus on suffering"
*i would never show it if i liked some one- what are you, crazy?
physical contact- my mum's pretty touchy-feely,but i'm not, i can do physical contact if it's a massage- i'm pretty good at them
*some people think they like me but they wouldnt if they got to know me, i think some people think i'm cute and sweet because i'm little and look younger than i am and am polite, people think i'm such a good girl but it's not like i've had the chance to do anything, and i dont want the attention, other people might get to like me but i usually canttalk to people i admire
*i am an outsider
*prone to shame-yep, and i cant do eye contact, also i get ashamed for other people, more than they do for themselves, i find it helps to tell people if i've done something stupid, make it into a funny thing- so i dont keep going over it in my head....
yeah, this is me, $#%^, sorry it's so long