Last day

The last day of the cafe I ran is coming up. Five more days then it's gone. I am in a state of disbelief. I find if I believe it I don't want to live. That was MY place, MY program. I worked there for more than 6 years and then ran it for 7. Then 4 months ago they kicked me out and put me on administrative leave for protesting about people who were not showing up on time. I couldn't igore the problem - I would get left alone to deal with a dozen customers. For the past 4 months they have left that situation to my good assistant, Glo. I just talked to her on the phone. She told me how frustrating it has been. But the administration would do nothing about it. Now Glo doesn't have a job. I have been given a transfer to a tedious data entry job. She is second on the list to get it - behind me. Maybe I won't be allowed to take it since I'm STILL on administrative leave. Then she would have it. Maybe I should just pull out and let her have it. She is such a nice person. I should tell her that I love her and hug her if they let me go back to pick up my things.

IF they let me. Yes, I think they could be so cruel to keep me away. I'm not sure I could deal with going there for the last time and seeing it all empty like that anyway.

It really sucks how they handled the situation, at least you stuck up for yourself though. I doubt i would have been able too.

I bet no one even tells me they're sorry about how it ended. Don't some places do exit interviews? These people won't. I wouldn't know what to say anyway. You always have to be so careful in what you say.

I wish someone else would call. I've known many of those people for 15 years. No one has even called me except for Glo.

I just e-mailed my boss. She said I could pick up my personal belongings any time. I'm leaving right now. It's going to be really sad seeing the place so empty.

I got my stuff. The place is getting really empty. The vendors are coming to pick up the coolers in a couple of days. Everything I built up is being dismantled. I too all my records out of the jukebox. I had it stocked with my own personal collection. I visited some people I had not seen in 4 months. I stayed out of sight when the exec came around.

I´m in a sorrow for you, my dear friend. Honey, as far as you can, see the thing not as a failure (you was capable to built this place for the nuts enjoyment and forget their problems for some time. If you were capable of this, you also can get things in the future. And, now you´ve got more experience. Parador there are many institution where you can contribute with that experience.

As for Glo, you are the right to take the decission. You only know your and her circunstances.
I know you feel really upset now, so there is no word. Only a strong hug.

I'm trying to hold it together. But it's like watching my house burn down. I said so in the grief forum. How long will this pain last I wonder. I just found the figures from 2005-2006 fiscal year. It shows a $1036 profit for the year. And the place is being cut to save money. So they say.

A net profit of $1036 over an entire year is abysmal. That's what, 1/50th of your paycheck?

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I don't mean to be rude to you man, but people need bonuses. Even if net profit = 1000 bucks, what does that mean? It means that you have a subsidiary that is barely sustainable. From what you've said, I would have to side with administration. THAT being said, it really sucks dude. Finding a job is such a terrible ordeal. Best of luck.