Powerlessness

Doesn't it seem like others have more power over your life than you do? It's always been that way for me. Since school when they harassed and humiliated me constantly. Taecher admin and kids. Then two years locked up, with them trying to tell me where to live and even force drugs on me. Then working for the government. I may be forced out. Why? Because I did my job. Really. Don't report waste and corruption, just do what they tell you, work overtime without pay and be a good boy. Go home every night with your tail between your legs. I can't even control what dental materials to have in my mouth. Soe asshole dentist decides it and I have to suffer for his mistake. There's only one way to get control. It's so temping sometimes.

Only tempting, my friend. Don´t think seriously about it, please! Parador is time you show them you have your own control and especially, show yourself. You have to deal with a lot of obstacles in the life, like many other people. Imagine how much people have die by a medical bad praxis, or by a terrible mistake. Obviously we only have a certain control in our lifes, we depend on many other proffessionals. You can do everything on your own.
I ask you for a moment that think about how many people have been helped by phychologists and psychiatrist, how many people have been helped and alive thanks to a doctor work, etc, etc, etc.
I´m sure you´ll get some compensation for this bad dentist. Don´t stop fighting.

My suspension was up. I showed up for work. They kicked me out and said it was extended another month. I'm laid off in a month. Cruel bastards. I hate people. I don't want to have to deal with them ever again. I should have stayed on disability. When the shrinks said I was schizo I got it but I gave it up and acepted a full time job.

Parador wrote: When the shrinks said I was schizo I got it but I gave it up and acepted a full time job

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This is something to be proud of, isn´t it?
What about this suspenssion? Did they get something againts you? Is there any possibility you can demand them?
Perhaps you should consider, after solve these problems to move and being from zero. Perhaps in another State or Canada. I don´t know how diddicult could it be finding a job in Canada, but I would try.
If someday, you decide to come to Spain, let me know. Here, learning English is considered the very best. And, native English people are really well considered.
I know a man from Seatle who works here in my State, as a traductor for a local newspaper.

twistermind wrote:[What about this suspenssion? Did they get something againts you? Is there any possibility you can demand them?
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They have nothing on me. This "investigation" has been going on for nearly 4 months. This is what they do with whistleblowres who bad mouth them and point out their incompenance to outside agencies. Just put them on paid admin leave and "investigate." It is an outragous waste of tax money, but they are not officailly punishing me. I've been paid fully while out. Most people wouldn't even look me in the eye when I went in there. It was very creepy. Nobody asking how I've been or anything. They either think I've done something wrong or are intimidated by the exec. She is using nazi tactics to keep people in line.

I've got a lot of fighting to do befor I move out of state. The problem I have is that publically critisizing my bosses IS insubordination and grounds for discipline. I've done everything I can through proper channels though.

Hey Parador.

I've been trying to think of something to say for a few days now.
All I can think of is along the lines of "there there"and I don't want to sound patronising.

You'll be alright mate.

My lawyer thinks I should just jump at the first job that comes along to get out of that place. It Is a soul sucking pit of despair. I want to fight those creeps though. They shoudn't be allowed to act the way they do. They are supposed to be helping people. All they do is try to squash anyone who disagrees with them.

Parador wrote:
They have nothing on me. This "investigation" has been going on for nearly 4 months. This is what they do with whistleblowres who bad mouth them and point out their incompenance to outside agencies. Just put them on paid admin leave and "investigate." It is an outragous waste of tax money, but they are not officailly punishing me. I've been paid fully while out. Most people wouldn't even look me in the eye when I went in there. It was very creepy. Nobody asking how I've been or anything. They either think I've done something wrong or are intimidated by the exec. She is using nazi tactics to keep people in line.

I see. It´s a revenge. This is why I tell you you can´t do anything againts them. They are using dirty tactics and the rest of co-workers are behaviouring like cowards or "zombies". Noone is going to move a finger for you, my friend. And you know this. So, trust in me. The best is to forget and begin from zero. Let the issue for your lawyer and worry about your future.

They are getting bad press from the closing of my program. We had a press conference and rally at the capitol yesterday. And a reporter is doing two stories on me. She said she might do a third.

Ok, ok. Parador, it´s not me who is gonna tell you what to do, but honey, I tell you with lots of respect. You have been always fighting againts and it´s time you fight for, for you.
A kiss and good luck.