Self Mutilation

I have done it many times as far as I can remember right now. On a few occasions, I have burned my hand with cigarettes (not smoked by me) - They actually burn at quite high temperatures and leave a neat little bit of melted skin. I also just took a knife and started slahing at my arm violently once after I had binge-eaten. It was out of sheer hatred of myself for not being able to control my food.

I once repeatedly punched a hard-wooden table for at least five minutes. It left my fist bruised and I couldn't move my fingers properly for a while, but I felt better temporarily.

oh thanks, i was going to start a thread about self-mutiliation.

I've been having more and more episodes of self-harm lately - cutting, self-harm=cutting in my case. nothing really shocking or serious, but i feel more and more driven to it.

I usually cut because:

- I feel empty or have chaotic feelings and can't pinpoint the cause so I create physical pain that is easier to handle
- it gives me a kind of weird emotional warmth
- it stops me crying (useful when i am about to burst into tears and don't want people to see it.

I can't cut myself. If I ever did that, I'd probably end up fainting on the floor from the sight of blood. I almost passed out from getting a shot once.

I have never cut or burned before - i think i would be too scared. But, when i was a child, right up to my early 20s i suffered from trichotrillomania. That is a type of ocd of pulling ones own hair out.

i would have a stressful anxious moment and then i would pull my hair out for about 5-20 minutes and that would calm me right down. i would go into a state and not really be aware i was doing it. it was like a trance. i imagine that is what its like to cut.

I still have OCD, of course, it's not as bad as when I was younger also. I started out with the fear of germs and serious diseases, so I washed my hands constantly every time I felt that I had touched something that was unsanitary. Not to mention the anthrax threat that was going around sometime after the terrorist attacks.(That scared me half to death)Currently, I just can't stop checking my windows at night to make sure they're locked and I usually try to fix something into a right position if it looks out of order. I'll even flip my light switches on and off however many times it takes to feel like I did it successfully. I could go on forever with my problems, but I'll leave it at that.

A real life Shinji wrote:

Yukinari wrote:I still have OCD, of course, it's not as bad as when I was younger also. I started out with the fear of germs and serious diseases, so I washed my hands constantly every time I felt that I had touched something that was unsanitary. Not to mention the anthrax threat that was going around sometime after the terrorist attacks.(That scared me half to death)Currently, I just can't stop checking my windows at night to make sure they're locked and I usually try to fix something into a right position if it looks out of order. I'll even flip my light switches on and off however many times it takes to feel like I did it successfully. I could go on forever with my problems, but I'll leave it at that.

I used to be the exact same things. I would never get out of the house as I would have to check if the cooker was off.

By cooker do you mean stove? Sorry for asking such a dumb question by the way.

I just posted this in another thread here but i guess i'll post it again. I don't cut but I've burned myself, helps release psychological stress and makes me relaxed after. The pain feels good and I like the smell of the skin burning, yea i know it sounds gross. I've also done some overdosing but stopped. I used to go running until i would literally collapsed from exhaustion, i don't know if that would fall under self harm though.

I like to pick my scabs if that counts, but never any cutting, burning or anything of the sort.

There's something wrong with your avatar, Jessica's Hope, and you might want to check it out. It's as if the link you have provided for it is incorrect.

How exactly do you burn yourself Hatake?