Avoidant Questionaire

1; How many close friends do you have?
One I think....

2; Do you hate yourself and to what degree?
I don´t hate myself, but I have a lot of self harm related episodes

3; How strong is your aversion to physical contact?
it´s getting worst. I hate when my parents try to be caring and I haven´t had sex with my wife in years

4;Do you have difficulties making eye contact?
Yes, a lot.

5; Do you hate having your photo taken?
It doesn´t come up often. Depends on my mood, but not too bad.

6; Do you feel worthlesss?
I think yes

7; Has anyone ever said they loved you?
Yes

8; Have you told anyone you loved them?
Yes

9; Do you think you are ugly?
No

10; Do you think you are below average intelligence?
No

11;Have you seriously considered suicide
Two real attempts, twice in a coma.

12; Do you have major difficulties initiating romantic encounters with the opposiate sex?
Yes

13; Roughly how old are you?
30

14; What made you Avoidant, briefly?
Its been always dificult to be arround other people for me. Not sure what that makes me.

15; Are you afraid to fail and succeed?
yes

16;Are you bitter and cynical?
No

17; Are you open to the idea of suicide?
Yes, its a recurring thought

18; Do you find it difficult to trust people?
yes

19;What is your co-morbid disorder?(i.e. traits of SPD NPD OCD ect.)
Diagnosed as Cluster B Borderline, depression, derrealization, depressonalization, panic attack, social phobia, etc

20; Do you have any hope left?
Yes

21;Have you ever had sex?
Yes

22; If a comet has forecasted to destroy the Earth how would you feel?
Warm.

23; Are you prone to bouts of anger?
Not too much no. just verbal.

24; Name your redeeming features?
I don´t know.

25; Do you cry alot?
No.

26; Whats your sexual orientation?
Straight.

27; Whats your gender?
Male

28; Are you often emotionally numb?
No, I´m normaly in emotional pain.

29; Are you jealous?
No.

30; How do you kill the boredom?
Psychiatric meds abuse, computer games, masturbation. Internet.

31; Are making the effort to fight this curse?
yes.

32; If you knew for certain that souls exist would you sell your soul for ten years to true happiness?
No.

33; How intense is your social phobia?
Very intense.

1; How many close friends do you have?
3

2; Do you hate yourself and to what degree?
I used to strongly, but it's less now

3; How strong is your aversion to physical contact?
I feel a bit uncomfortable if it's unexpected

4;Do you have difficulties making eye contact?
No

5; Do you hate having your photo taken?
Can't stand it!

6; Do you feel worthlesss?
Not totally

7; Has anyone ever said they loved you?
Yes

8; Have you told anyone you loved them?
Yes

9; Do you think you are ugly?
Jeez, I dunno

10; Do you think you are below average intelligence?
Sometimes I feel superior in intelligence, sometimes I feel like a complete fool

11;Have you seriously considered suicide
In the past, yes

12; Do you have major difficulties initiating romantic encounters with the opposiate sex?
Not if I put myself out there, but I usually don't (put myself out there)

13; Roughly how old are you?
34

14; What made you Avoidant, briefly?
Genes, environment, some unfortunate incidents

15; Are you afraid to fail and succeed?
Both, which can make things difficult

16;Are you bitter and cynical?
In some areas

17; Are you open to the idea of suicide?
No

18; Do you find it difficult to trust people?
Not generally and can be quite naively trusting at times

19;What is your co-morbid disorder?(i.e. traits of SPD NPD OCD ect.)
Dysthymia, GAD probably

20; Do you have any hope left?
Some

21;Have you ever had sex?
Yes

22; If a comet has forecasted to destroy the Earth how would you feel?
Terrified

23; Are you prone to bouts of anger?
Yes

24; Name your redeeming features?
Empathy, sense of humour, some talents

25; Do you cry alot?
No

26; Whats your sexual orientation?
Straight

27; Whats your gender?
Female

28; Are you often emotionally numb?
Occasionally

29; Are you jealous?
More than I'd like to be

30; How do you kill the boredom?
Reading, shopping, animals

31; Are making the effort to fight this curse?
Yes.

32; If you knew for certain that souls exist would you sell your soul for ten years to true happiness?
If souls exist then maybe my soul will one day find its way to happiness, so no

33; How intense is your social phobia?
Mild to moderate these days

1; How many close friends do you have?
2 close, then a couple others not too close.

2; Do you hate yourself and to what degree?
Only the part causing the APD.

3; How strong is your aversion to physical contact?
No problem with people I trust.

4;Do you have difficulties making eye contact?
No

5; Do you hate having your photo taken?
As long as it's my camera, no.

6; Do you feel worthlesss?
No.

7; Has anyone ever said they loved you?
Just close family.

8; Have you told anyone you loved them?
Just close family.

9; Do you think you are ugly?
No.

10; Do you think you are below average intelligence?
No, I believe to have above average intelligence.

11;Have you seriously considered suicide
No.

12; Do you have major difficulties initiating romantic encounters with the opposiate sex?
Yes, my main problem is by the time I gather the courage, it's too late.

13; Roughly how old are you?
21

14; What made you Avoidant, briefly?
Was raised to be independent, teased in school.

15; Are you afraid to fail and succeed?
I don't like failing something, but it only makes me stronger.

16;Are you bitter and cynical?
Slightly.

17; Are you open to the idea of suicide?
Not anytime soon.

18; Do you find it difficult to trust people?
Yes, I need to be around them for a long time to rust them.

19;What is your co-morbid disorder?(i.e. traits of SPD NPD OCD ect.)
Don't know.

20; Do you have any hope left?
Yes.

21;Have you ever had sex?
No.

22; If a comet has forecasted to destroy the Earth how would you feel?
In a way, I want the human race to end, but I'd probably start panicking.

23; Are you prone to bouts of anger?
I used to, now I've calmed down quite a bit.

24; Name your redeeming features?
Smart, witty, funny, good looking.

25; Do you cry alot?
No.

26; Whats your sexual orientation?
Hetero

27; Whats your gender?
Male

28; Are you often emotionally numb?
Yes.

29; Are you jealous?
Yes.

30; How do you kill the boredom?
Through my hobbies, I also work and go to school full time.

31; Are making the effort to fight this curse?
Yes.

32; If you knew for certain that souls exist would you sell your soul for ten years to true happiness?
Would need more info, but maybe.

33; How intense is your social phobia?
Mild. I cannot go to clubs or bars and tend to go places with few people. It only affects my social life, at work I'm usually fine.

This is my first post by the way. I'm finally going to do something about this and this forum seems like a good place to start. Anyway, here's my responses:

1; How many close friends do you have? probably none; maybe one or two, depending on how I look at it

2; Do you hate yourself and to what degree? at times, but not usually.

3; How strong is your aversion to physical contact? somewhat strong, but not to people I'm very close with

4;Do you have difficulties making eye contact? a bit

5; Do you hate having your photo taken? absolutely

6; Do you feel worthless? sometimes

7; Has anyone ever said they loved you? yes

8; Have you told anyone you loved them? yes

9; Do you think you are ugly? a little

10; Do you think you are below average intelligence? no

11;Have you seriously considered suicide? yep

12; Do you have major difficulties initiating romantic encounters with the opposite sex? yep

13; Roughly how old are you? 24

14; What made you Avoidant, briefly? not sure, maybe it was growing up with an abusive older brother

15; Are you afraid to fail and succeed? afraid to fail, not to succeed

16;Are you bitter and cynical? somewhat

17; Are you open to the idea of suicide? philosophically yes, but it's not exactly on my list of things to do

18; Do you find it difficult to trust people? somewhat

19;What is your co-morbid disorder?(i.e. traits of SPD NPD OCD ect.) I'm not sure what this means, but I don't think I have another disorder besides this one.

20; Do you have any hope left? absolutely

21;Have you ever had sex? yes, but not until I was 23

22; If a comet has forecasted to destroy the Earth how would you feel? probably fairly calm, at peace

23; Are you prone to bouts of anger? almost never

24; Name your redeeming features? kind, compassionate, idealistic, intelligent, thoughtful

25; Do you cry a lot? I can't cry at all when it comes to personal pain, but I can cry very easily from sad or moving moments in movies

26; Whats your sexual orientation? straight

27; Whats your gender? male

28; Are you often emotionally numb? yes

29; Are you jealous? not jealous, but envious of people whom I respect and want to be like but cannot

30; How do you kill the boredom? in the country I never feel bored, always plenty of things to do; here in the city, internet seems to be my only outlet

31; Are making the effort to fight this curse? that's why I'm here

32; If you knew for certain that souls exist would you sell your soul for ten years to true happiness? It depends to whom I am selling my soul I suppose Probably not, though.

33; How intense is your social phobia? moderate to strong; It's easier to deal with living in a foreign country, but I think I'm just running away from things. [/b]

1; How many close friends do you have? One

2; Do you hate yourself and to what degree? I hate many aspects of myself, some rather more intensely than others.

3; How strong is your aversion to physical contact? I don't believe I have any particular aversion to physical contact.

4;Do you have difficulties making eye contact? Yes, extreme difficulty. Walking down streets, shopping, public transport... they're some of the moments when it becomes most acute and painful.

Sometimes, when I'm down, or when someone close to me, be it a parent or sibling says something that upsets me/makes me angry, I just can't bring myself to look at them either.

5; Do you hate having your photo taken? Yes.

6; Do you feel worthlesss? Yes.

7; Has anyone ever said they loved you? Yes.

8; Have you told anyone you loved them? Yes.

9; Do you think you are ugly? Yes.

10; Do you think you are below average intelligence? I think I'm just average. Certainly, my academic achievements or lack thereof would point to that.

11;Have you seriously considered suicide? Because I've never actually gotten to the point where I attempted suicide, I don't know if I can say I seriously considered it. But, I went through a very bad phase a few years back where... I thought about it every night and had a rough plan.

In the morning as I waited for my train to college, I sometimes thought about just hopping out. But I never did it, I never even pretended to do go through the lead up motions. So maybe I was just acting out in my head, imagining things being better.

That was my absolute rock bottom though. What upsets me the most is that nobody really knew. Nobody. Nobody tried to intervene and help me. They didn't because they couldn't see what was wrong with me. I made little cries of help, but they went unnoticed.

I remember my parents had relayed a story to me when I was much younger; a client of theirs had come in, whose son had committed suicide. My folks said he just couldn't understand, "why?". They said he was utterly broken by it, and ventured to suggest that the son was selfish - a common complaint I've heard from people in this country.

Well, when I was at rock bottom, and wondering why to live, the only reason that came up was guilt. I didn't want to hurt my family, but that was severely tested at times - living for someone elses sake is not enough in and of itself. People need to understand that before labelling people who commit suicide selfish.

Anyway - I'm well out of that phase, I took no meds, have had no councilling, I just got out of it. My brain readjusted itself, and now my outlook is roughly "I don't want to die yet, I want to live a little and see the world. I've experienced too little."

12; Do you have major difficulties initiating romantic encounters with the opposiate sex? Yes. I have a tendancy to pre-emptively cut/screw up any chances of romance.

13; Roughly how old are you? Mid 20's.

14; What made you Avoidant, briefly? Partly down to my (over) sensitivity, my lifelong ill ease with my many shortcomings and the way people treated me.

15; Are you afraid to fail and succeed? I'm afraid to try.

16;Are you bitter and cynical? About myself? Yes. About the world? No. Actually, I'm relatively positive when it comes to my outlook on life. I try to think the best about people and give them the benefit of the doubt.

17; Are you open to the idea of suicide? For me? Not anymore, I hope it continues.

18; Do you find it difficult to trust people? Hmm. I only have one close friend, I trust him implicitly. There's no-one else, outside of immediate family, who I'd trust.

19;What is your co-morbid disorder?(i.e. traits of SPD NPD OCD ect.) This is something I haven't really looked into, but I'm sure someone reading these responses will have suggestions

20; Do you have any hope left? Yes. While my imagination isn't quite as potent as it once was at helping me escape from reality, I still imagine being successful at something or other down the road. A lot of these fantasies have some minor grounding in reality, so that's hope.

21;Have you ever had sex? Yep.

22; If a comet has forecasted to destroy the Earth how would you feel? Fear, and some despair that for all our obvious faults as a species, there'll be no trace left of some of the beautiful things, like music and art.

And then loneliness. Thinking about it, I know I'd yearn to hold the only person I ever loved romantically, but she's moved on, so that wouldn't happen.

23; Are you prone to bouts of anger? Hmm. Inward directed anger, yes. But, as a rule, I don't really lose my temper with people at least not openly. I just wind up having arguments with myself.

24; Name your redeeming features? I've been told I'm good at councilling people, ironically.

25; Do you cry alot? Not anymore. I did when I was younger. The last time I cried was when my dog died a year or so ago. My granny died not long after that - I didn't cry once. How's that for messed up?

26; Whats your sexual orientation? Straight. But, bleh, I'm dubious about orientation. I've never been attracted to a male physically and I doubt I ever will, but I'm open to the possibility that I could be attracted to a male because of their personality, if that makes any sense.

27; Whats your gender? Male.

28; Are you often emotionally numb? In some respects, yes.

29; Are you jealous? I don't think so. If I do get a rare feeling of jealousy, it's sure to be kicked to touch by my own inner monologue.

30; How do you kill the boredom? Imagination and distractions. Many many distractions. When I can switch off my internal monologue, I read. I watch lots of old films. My first love is music.

I have a few creative interests like photography & things, but I'm not much good at any of them.

31; Are making the effort to fight this curse? I think siging up here is a sign that I am. I don't intend to wallow in self loathing for the rest of my life. I believe this condition is perfectly treatable given the right conditions.

32; If you knew for certain that souls exist would you sell your soul for ten years to true happiness? This is a bit too out there for me. Even if souls could be proven to exist, I'm not sure that true happiness could ever be

33; How intense is your social phobia? Right now, it's extremely bad. I'm not going out, apart from walks at night.

1; How many close friends do you have?

One

2; Do you hate yourself and to what degree?

No, only when I make stupid mistakes

3; How strong is your aversion to physical contact?

I dont mind being touched, but I dont like touching other people.

4;Do you have difficulties making eye contact?

yep, and I hate when people look at me

5; Do you hate having your photo taken?

Not really, It never happens anyway

6; Do you feel worthlesss?

Not at the moment

7; Has anyone ever said they loved you?

only mother and father

8; Have you told anyone you loved them?

only when obligated

9; Do you think you are ugly?

Most of the time, yes, im very pale

10; Do you think you are below average intelligence?

No, average

11;Have you seriously considered suicide

No

12; Do you have major difficulties initiating romantic encounters with the opposiate sex?

yes

13; Roughly how old are you?

just turned 17


14; What made you Avoidant, briefly?

my own dumbass self

15; Are you afraid to fail and succeed?

Im afraid to fail, I want to succeed more than anything else

16;Are you bitter and cynical?

yup

17; Are you open to the idea of suicide?

No

18; Do you find it difficult to trust people?

Yeah

19;What is your co-morbid disorder?(i.e. traits of SPD NPD OCD ect.)

Idk maybe paranoid

20; Do you have any hope left?

Yep ,a lot

21;Have you ever had sex?

Only with Rosey Palm

22; If a comet has forecasted to destroy the Earth how would you feel?

I'd feel scared and shout 'Wheres Bruce Willis?!?!'

23; Are you prone to bouts of anger?

Yes but I rarely express it

24; Name your redeeming features?

strawberry blonde hair

25; Do you cry alot?

Nope

26; Whats your sexual orientation?

Straight

27; Whats your gender?

Male.

28; Are you often emotionally numb?

sometimes

29; Are you jealous?

very!

30; How do you kill the boredom?

Watch movies, sit in silence and think, write, read

31; Are you making the effort to fight this curse?

Yes, but I still make my terrible transformation when the full moon dawns

32; If you knew for certain that souls exist would you sell your soul for ten years to true happiness?

No, but I would sell my DVD copy of 'Soul Plane'.

33; How intense is your social phobia?

mild

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1; How many close friends do you have?

None, unless you include my mum

2; Do you hate yourself and to what degree?

Yep, it affects me alot, I can't remember the last time I didn't hate myself.

3; How strong is your aversion to physical contact?

I'm not too bad with this, but I don't enjoy it I pull away from all family hugs.

4;Do you have difficulties making eye contact?

Most of the time yes.

5; Do you hate having your photo taken?

Yes I hate it.

6; Do you feel worthlesss?

Very much so.

7; Has anyone ever said they loved you?

Only my mum.

8; Have you told anyone you loved them?

Only my mum, but only because i felt I had to.

9; Do you think you are ugly?

Yes I think I look disgusting

10; Do you think you are below average intelligence?

Yeah I seem pretty slow, but I wasn't when i was younger

11;Have you seriously considered suicide

Yes, I have tried three times and got close a few other times.

12; Do you have major difficulties initiating romantic encounters with the opposiate sex?

I have difficulty initiating any sort of contact, and if i was to try anything romantic it wouldn't be with the opposite sex.

13; Roughly how old are you?

17

14; What made you Avoidant, briefly?

I have always been quiet, I guess being bullied made it worse.

15; Are you afraid to fail and succeed? Im afraid to try because i will probably fail

16;Are you bitter and cynical? yes.

17; Are you open to the idea of suicide? yes.

18; Do you find it difficult to trust people? very

19;What is your co-morbid disorder?(i.e. traits of SPD NPD OCD ect.)

possibly BPD

20; Do you have any hope left?

Yes but currently very little, normaly its more though, just at the moment things are really bed.

21;Have you ever had sex?

No

22; If a comet has forecasted to destroy the Earth how would you feel?

Relieved

23; Are you prone to bouts of anger?

Yes, hardly ever show it though.

24; Name your redeeming features?

My blue eyes I guess

25; Do you cry alot?

I can't cry much.

26; Whats your sexual orientation?

gay

27; Whats your gender?

Female

28; Are you often emotionally numb?

sometimes

29; Are you jealous?

alot

30; How do you kill the boredom?

Internet or I read.

31; Are making the effort to fight this curse?

I go to college and try to socialize occasionally that count? Also as of tomorrow im seeing a shrink, not sure how long that will last though.

32; If you knew for certain that souls exist would you sell your soul for ten years to true happiness?

Yes in a second.

33; How intense is your social phobia?

very intense.

1; How many close friends do you have? Two

2; Do you hate yourself and to what degree? I don´t hate myself, I only hate fear. But I feel very fustrated.

3; How strong is your aversion to physical contact? 0 out of ten. I love physical contact. I think is cutural.

4;Do you have difficulties making eye contact? Yes, I can´t stand people look at me. And I avoid looking them.

5; Do you hate having your photo taken? Yes, I hate it. I always get angry with my partner. He likes taking photos.

6; Do you feel worthlesss?Yes, sometimes when I compare myself with others.

7; Has anyone ever said they loved you? Yes

8; Have you told anyone you loved them? Yes

9; Do you think you are ugly? Nor pretty to bewitch people neither ugly to horrorify them.

10; Do you think you are below average intelligence? Yes, and this is make me mad.

11;Have you seriously considered suicide Yes, a couple of times, but not anymore.

12; Do you have major difficulties initiating romantic encounters with the opposiate sex? Yes, all my life.

13; Roughly how old are you? physical age (36) mental age (15)

14; What made you Avoidant, briefly? My low self-steem. Call it overprotector parents or frieghtened parents.

15; Are you afraid to fail and succeed? Yes, both.

16;Are you bitter and cynical? bitter, sometimes.

17; Are you open to the idea of suicide? No-more. I can´t stand the idea that my partner or my family feel guilty or I change their lives, forever. If I were alone, I fill my body in alchool like Nicolas Cage in Living Las Vegas.

18; Do you find it difficult to trust people? Yes, all the time.

19;What is your co-morbid disorder?(i.e. traits of SPD NPD OCD ect.) Perfectionism and Dependent Personality, depression and
Graces-Basedow

20; Do you have any hope left? I was missing some months ago but I´m now hopefull

21;Have you ever had sex? I don´t like to talk about sex, but I´ve got a partner so....

22; If a comet has forecasted to destroy the Earth how would you feel? Fear, but a justified fear.

23; Are you prone to bouts of anger? Yes, sometimes. When someone interrupt what I´m doing.

24; Name your redeeming features? I´m human.

25; Do you cry alot? Yes, in each corner.

26; Whats your sexual orientation? For now, I´m hetero

27; Whats your gender? female

28; Are you often emotionally numb? Yes, quite often.

29; Are you jealous? Sometimes

30; How do you kill the boredom? Going out to make the theraphy, going out with my partner, reading and writing and surfing on the internet.

31; Are making the effort to fight this curse? Absolutly.

32; If you knew for certain that souls exist would you sell your soul for ten years to true happiness? True happiness is very boring and it´ll kill me.

33; How intense is your social phobia? Now, it´s 7 out of 10

Asuka wrote:This has the makings of a great thread so I hope alot of people reply.

1; How many close friends do you have?
None

2; Do you hate yourself and to what degree?
I hate my body and my mind, I feel they have no potential. I hate how afraid I am of others and how I let this fear run my life, I hate that others do not understand me. But I do not believe I am a bad person.

3; How strong is your aversion to physical contact?
Fairly low, except to the face.

4;Do you have difficulties making eye contact?
Extreme difficulties, I usually stop breathing when it gets too direct or strange.

5; Do you hate having your photo taken?
Yes.

6; Do you feel worthless?
Helpless is a better term, I don't personally believe we all contain a certain worth. I believe only our actions can determine that, so I don't feel worthless. I feel I'm unable to enhance myself because I'm too paralyzed by intense fear.

7; Has anyone ever said they loved you?
Yes

8; Have you told anyone you loved them?
No

9; Do you think you are ugly?
no opinion.

10; Do you think you are below average intelligence?
Depends on the category of said intelligence, as well as how you define the term. Generally speaking, my mind is nothing special.

11;Have you seriously considered suicide?
Yes, since about the age of 10 every day.

12; Do you have major difficulties initiating romantic encounters with the opposite sex?
Yes.

13; Roughly how old are you?
18

14; What made you Avoidant, briefly?
A series of complex events that led me to believe I couldn't trust anyone or let anyone get too close. My psychiatrists early diagnosis of Asperger's. Then there's always simply my general nature.

15; Are you afraid to fail and succeed?
I don't really care as much, I can deal with failure, I actually purposely fail most of the time if it alleviates social tension. I have no response to the question of whether I'm afraid to fail and succeed simultaneously.

16;Are you bitter and cynical?
Most days, not today.

17; Are you open to the idea of suicide?
yes.
18; Do you find it difficult to trust people?
yes.
19;What is your co-morbid disorder?(i.e. traits of SPD NPD OCD ect.)
dyspraxia, some form of depression, Social phobia, Asperger's, and other things undiscovered likely.

20; Do you have any hope left?
No, but I live on to insure my younger brother grows up right. I also believe it would invariably lead to my mother's suicide due to
her past behavior.

21;Have you ever had sex?
no.

22; If a comet has forecasted to destroy the Earth how would you feel?
Awful, because it would mean that those I care about would die. There's nothing I object more to than the hurting of the innocent.

23; Are you prone to bouts of anger?
No, not outwardly anyway.

24; Name your redeeming features?
I care about others, I'm passionate about knowledge and deciphering the Human mind.

25; Do you cry alot?
no.

26; Whats your sexual orientation?
heterosexual

27; Whats your gender?
Male

28; Are you often emotionally numb?
Yes.

29; Are you jealous?
Yes.

30; How do you kill the boredom?
More sleep or more thinking.

31; Are making the effort to fight this curse?
No, I don't think I can. I'm not even sure if it's real. Maybe it's just another excuse I'm making for my behavior.

32; If you knew for certain that souls exist would you sell your soul for ten years to true happiness?
no, that would be too easy.

33; How intense is your social phobia?
9 out of 10.

I hope I told the truth, often times I look back at my responses to personal surveys like this one and realize I misrepresented myself. I wonder if hiding myself is just something so deeply ingrained in me I can't help but do it when confronted.

Edit: Or perhaps my mind is so thoroughly disconnected from my emotions that I'm simply incapable of true honesty.

1; How many close friends do you have?
None

2; Do you hate yourself and to what degree?
Yes, as much as possible i imagine.

3; How strong is your aversion to physical contact?
Very, i freak out even if a family member tries to hug me...

4;Do you have difficulties making eye contact?
Yep

5; Do you hate having your photo taken?
Yep

6; Do you feel worthlesss?
Yep

7; Has anyone ever said they loved you?
Only 2 people

8; Have you told anyone you loved them?
same 2 people...

9; Do you think you are ugly?
sure do

10; Do you think you are below average intelligence?
More then likley

11;Have you seriously considered suicide
Yep, tried many times too

12; Do you have major difficulties initiating romantic encounters with the opposiate sex?
Yep sure do.

13; Roughly how old are you?
mid 20's

14; What made you Avoidant, briefly?
Guessing lack of affection shown to me as a kid, years of physical and mental abuse by family members and other kids at school...

15; Are you afraid to fail and succeed?
Yes

16;Are you bitter and cynical?
I think so

17; Are you open to the idea of suicide?
Sometimes

18; Do you find it difficult to trust people?
Yes

19;What is your co-morbid disorder?(i.e. traits of SPD NPD OCD ect.) Dunno?

20; Do you have any hope left?
Nope

21;Have you ever had sex?
yeah, dont like it tho..

22; If a comet has forecasted to destroy the Earth how would you feel?
Relieved..

23; Are you prone to bouts of anger?
At times yes

24; Name your redeeming features?
None?

25; Do you cry alot?
Sometimes when no ones around..

26; Whats your sexual orientation?
i dunno

27; Whats your gender?
m

28; Are you often emotionally numb?
sometimes i think

29; Are you jealous?
yes at times.

30; How do you kill the boredom?
surfing the internet reading articles and blogs about technology and science

31; Are making the effort to fight this curse?
Think i have given up on that for many years now..

32; If you knew for certain that souls exist would you sell your soul for ten years to true happiness?
Doubt i would.

33; How intense is your social phobia?
Probably pretty severe, dont leave the house much except for work, and grocery shopping.