A Reason to Live

I need a reason to live.

Hi,

I hope you don't mind, Hungry Ghost, that I have linked your other thread in this forum to this one. I just did not feel that having two threads running about a similar subject would be beneficial.

We all need reasons to live and I'm sorry hat you don't have one at present. What's going wrong in your life right now though? Try to set yourself a small goal in the future. We need to be doing things because, otherwise, our brain turns against us.

Kevin

I'm bored with life. I no longer enjoy the things I used to. And you know what? I don't want to. I realize now they were just pointless distractions.

What did you used to do?; and what are you doing in life right now? I mean, are you in college, working, or doing nothing? Do not give up hope on everything just yet. we are not finished with you here. You will probably relate to a lot of people here, in fact. I , for example, do not see a point to life and wish that I was dead every day. However, I just keep living for the sake of it.

Don't worry, I'm too cowardly to kill myself. Actually, I'm not even depressed right now.

Chucky, if you really feel that way, why do you go on?

It's odd that you say you are too cowardly to kill yourself, because some people (who are completely ignorant of what it is to be depressed) regard actual suicide as a coward's way out. If only they knew how hard it is to kill yourself, then they would soon change their minds. It is incredibly difficult to take that final 'plunge' and do it. I've been close a few times.

Why do I go on? - I'm not sure. I guess I don't feel like I'm finished living yet and, if I killed myself, all of the people who have hurt me in my life will have gotten away with it. Yes, there is immense hatred in my mind, but I'm not sure how to channel it correctly yet.

First off, this is my first post. Not a single day goes by without the voice in my head telling me to kill myself. Sometimes its as soon as I get out of bed. Everyone has to have their own reason to live and for me its that today might actually be better than yesterday. Most of the time its not but occasionally it is. Change is slow. And if my days slowly get gradually a little bit better than perhaps one day I will be happy.

Thanks for your words, Hypnotic Robot. I'm guessing that you have suffered with these thoughts for such a long time in your life, given how calm you seem to be from your post. These thoughts suck the life out of us, don't though? That's rather like a pun... ...hehe


Kevin

Is Seppuku anything to do with the Hara-Kiri (where they gut themselves)? Iam aware that it is an honourable way to die, but I certainly don't like the thought of it. Anyway, I'm glad tat you see this issue in the way that I do too. It's been on my mind a lot recently because I've been remembering what this asshole of a lecturer said to me on two occassions: He said exactly what we've been talking about here, that suicide is a coward's way out of life.

I have been trying to gauge whether or not I should send him an email explaining that he's ignorant about it and should just shut-up.