Your Avoidance; An end of Summer review.

I haven't made any improvement in years. Just a slow steady decline.

Hypersensitivity to criticism or rejection ;

Much worse- I was pretty hypomanic before the summer started, but now I am very hypersensitive to external stimuli. It's not as bad as when I'm severely depressed and I walk down a hall and feel like everyone's talking about me in their private conversations. But I am on the constant lookout for rejection. Fortunately, I've only felt rejected five or six times in the past two weeks.


Self-imposed social isolation ;

I am also extremely shy in social situations. There's a very cute girl who I like, so I'll see what happens. For the most part, though, I don't have much to look forward to.



Avoids interpersonal relationships ;

I am going to have to work on getting close to people without the certainty that I will be liked.



Aversion to physical contact ;

No, I don't know where this falls in.



Feelings of inadequacy ;

Yes, at times. When I think about the girl who I like, I worry that I'm not smart enough for her and don't have a good history.



Severe low self-esteem ;

Yes, but it could be worse, and it is, sometimes.



Self loathing ;

No, I only feel this way when I'm moderately to severely depressed.



Mistrust of others ;

If I may quote Asuka:
"I'm still mistrustful but in a positive sense. I'm not naive."
(thanks)



Extreme timidity ;

Yes, and what makes it extreme is that I fear my timidness. I think people are talking about me when they're not, regarding how timid I am, but it's in my head. My actual timidness is not nearly as bad as I think it is.



Emotional distancing related to intimacy ;

I'm not sure.



Highly self-conscious ;

Yes.



Self-critical about their problems relating to others;

When I feel I am being ignored, then yes. But otherwise, no.



Problems in occupational functioning ;

I am looking for a job and I am quite sure I will be able to function at my usual, but not my best, due to issues with seroquel right now.



Lonely self-perception ;

I'm at peace with myself right now, but a little lonely, yes. Still, it's not much of a problem.



Feeling inferior to others ;

Yes. I feel that my learning disability has kept me from retaining knowledge and understanding which most people have.



Investment in fixed fantasies;

Not to a problematic extent, no. Nothing past creative thought.

I'm trying to focus less on the people I have been unable to get to treat me better and more on other people who seem more sensitive to my feelings.

Asuka wrote:Aversion to physical contact ;

Its a relatively common trait among avoidants.

Really?
Do others here fear and dislike physical contact?

I am envious when I see other people hug or exchange a social kiss as a greeting. I wish I got more physical contact. My fear is that physical contact from me is unwelcome by others.

Skog wrote:Really?
Do others here fear and dislike physical contact?

I am envious when I see other people hug or exchange a social kiss as a greeting. I wish I got more physical contact. My fear is that physical contact from me is unwelcome by others.

I'm kinda like that too. I'm afraid that people don't want any physical contact from me so i dont. I hate physical contact even if it's just our shoes touching. There's only a couple people I'm ok with any physical contact.