by nowherefast » Mon Jun 30, 2008 11:20 pm
I don't know. My main problems are traumas, fears, negative thinking...
I've thought about something that would make me Amnesiac, so I could "start over". I can't get past what happened in my early years.
So, ECT would be nice, imagine if it cured my depression AND made me lose my memory. That would be great, but it's a dream.
Therapy is a must for me. Without it I'm utterly lost.
And if all else fails, I'm dedicating my life to being a psychonaut, since I'm not killing myself anytime soon. Maybe I'll have a divine revelation or some breakthrough. Even elves would be cool. My life is already a pretty bad trip.
Drugs are "bad". Says who... The so-called society? The people who fit in? What about sugar, nicotine, alcohol, aspirin to name a few?
The ideals of capitalism do not interest me. Possessions and money, neither. I value art, compassion, imagination and creativity. I dream of moving to the country and enjoying my loneliness with intellectual activities. Einstein said:
"I have never looked upon ease and happiness as ends in themselves - this critical basis I call the ideal of a pigsty. The ideals that have lighted my way, and time after time have given me new courage to face life cheerfully, have been Kindness, Beauty, and Truth."
"The trite objects of human efforts -- possessions, outward success, luxury -- have always seemed to me contemptible.
I couldn't agree more.
And hell, if I'm going to die anyway I might as well have some fun here.