Songs for avoidants

Warning, this songs can make you cry and feel depressed.

VNV Nation - Solitary
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VNV Nation - Standing
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PJ Harvey - Silence

All those places where I recall
The memories that gripped me
And pinned me down

I go to these places
Intending to think
And think of nothing but anticipate

Somehow expect you'll find me there
That by some miracle, you'd be aware

I'd risen this morning determined to break
Spare my longing, not to think
I freed myself from my family
I freed myself from work
I freed myself, I freed myself and remained alone

And in my thinking
I'd steal you away
Though you never wanted me
Anyway

Silence

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and maybe also:

Tori Amos - Baker Baker
Baker Baker
Baking a cake
Make me a day
Make me whole again
And I wonder
What's in a day
What's in you cake this time

I guess you heard
He's gone to LA
He says that beihnd my eyes I'm hiding
And he tells me I pushed him away
That my hearts been hard to find

Here there must be something
Here there must be something here here

Baker Baker can you explain
If truly his heart
Was made of icing
And I wonder
How mine could taste
Maybe we could change his mind

I know you're late
For you next parade
You came to make sure
That I'm not running
Well I ran from hime
In all kinds of ways
Guess it was his turn this time

Time thought I'd made friends with time
Thought we'd be flying
Maybe not this time

Baker Baker
Baking a cake
Make me a day
Make me whole again
And I wonder
If he's ok
If you see him say hi

Classic.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8sF0bQBOsFM
Train roll on, on down the line,
Won't you please take me far away?
Now I feel the wind blow outside my door,
Means I'm leaving my woman behind.
Tuesday's gone with the wind.
My woman's gone with the wind.

And I don't know where I'm going.
I just want to be left alone.
Well, when this train ends I'll try again,
But I'm leaving my woman at home.

[chorus]
Tuesday's gone with the wind.
Tuesday's gone with the wind.
Tuesday's gone with the wind.
My woman's gone with the wind.

Train roll on many miles from my home,
See, I'm riding my blues away.
Tuesday, you see, she had to be free
But somehow I've got to carry on.



And..

I don't like the video much, but I relate to this song also. Its meaning never dies out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6gLc4FVEYpY
Waiting... for the ambulance to come
Hoping that it doesn't come... too late
Hearing the sirens in the distance
Hold on help... Is on the way
Mr. Ambulance Driver
I'm right here beside her
Though I'll live some how I've found
Mr. Ambulance Driver
I'm not a real survivor
Wishing that i was the one that...wasn't gonna be here anymore
The one that isn't here anymore
The one that isn't here anymore
Oh...we can't trade places
Our lives are strangely our own
Mr. Ambulance Driver
Tell Me...for everyone that dies someone new is born
Mr. Ambulance Driver
I'm right here beside her
And though I'll live somehow I've found
Mr. Ambulance Driver
I'm not a real survivor
Cause I'm wishing that i was the one that...wasn't gonna be here anymore
Mr. Ambulance Driver
I'm right here beside her
And tho I'll live somehow I've found
Mr. Ambulance Driver
I'm not a real survivor
Cause I'm wishing that i was the one that...wasn't gonna be here anymore
The one that isn't here anymore
The one that isn't here anymore
(Waiting for the ambulance to come, who who whooo)x2
Mr. Ambulance Driver

I love these parts from Behind Blues Eyes:

No one bites back as hard on their anger
None of my pain and woe can show through

and

When my fist clenches, crack it open
Before I use it and lose my cool
When I smile, tell me some bad news
Before I laugh and act like a fool

And I really like "Beautiful Loser" by Bob Seger

He wants to dream like a young man
With the wisdom of an old man.
He wants his home and security,
He wants to live like a sailor at sea.
Beautiful loser, where you gonna fall?
You realize you just cant have it all.

Hes your oldest and your best friend,
If you need him, hell be there again.
Hes always willing to be second best,
A perfect lodger, a perfect guest.
Beautiful loser, read it on the wall
And realize, you just cant have it all.
you cant have it all, you cant have it all,
cant have it all.

He'll never make any enemies,
He wont complain if hes caught in a freeze.
He'll always ask, he'll always say please.
Beautiful loser, never take it all
cause its easier, faster when you fall,
You just dont need it all
you just dont need it all.

I apologise if these songs have already been chosen.

<<Pantera - Live in a Hole>>

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_0ZSuq-CgZk

Full of grief I scream at the wind
Thought I heard the words of others
Imprison myself
And stay in a shell
I won't let you in to have a story to tell
Things tend to drag me down
Don't understand so they hate me now

My fear grips the will of stone
My fear grips I'll die alone

I promised myself somewhere in the teenage life
I'd never submit to the ones I will not be like
Live in a hole
But stay close to my kind
Cause they understand what burns in my mind
I still feel incomplete
Friends are few and far between

<<Alice in Chains - Down in a Hole>>

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FL0cK4gaEuM

Bury me softly in this womb
I give this part of me for you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers
In a tomb...in bloom

Down in a hole and I don't know if I can be saved
See my heart I decorate it like a grave
You don't understand who they
Thought I was supposed to be
Look at me now a man
Who won't let himself be

Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, losin' my soul
I'd like to fly,
But my wings have been so denied

Down in a hole and they've put all
The stones in their place
I've eaten the sun so my tongue
Has been burned of the taste
I have been guilty
Of kicking myself in the teeth
I will speak no more
of my feelings beneath

Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, losin' my soul
I'd like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

Bury me softly in this womb
Oh I want to be inside of you
I give this part of me for you
Oh I want to be inside of you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers (Oh I want to be inside of you)
In a tomb...in bloom
Oh I want to be inside...

Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, losin' my soul
Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, outta control
I'd like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

That is all for now.

I almost forgot this one. Its a little more positive than my afformentioned songs.

<<Soundgarden - The Day I Tried To Live>>

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hlX5X7gNraQ

I woke the same as any other day
Except a voice was in my head
It said seize the day, pull the trigger
Drop the blade, and watch the rolling heads

The day I tried to live
I stole a thousand beggar's change
And gave it to the rich

The day I tried to win
I dangled from the power lines
And let the martyrs stretch
Singing

One more time around might do it
One more time around might make it
One more time around might do it
One more time around
The day I tried to live

Words you say never seem
To live up to the ones inside your head
The lives we make never seem
To ever get us anywhere but dead

The day I tried to live
I wallowed in the blood and mud with
All the other pigs

I woke the same as any other day you know
I should have stayed in bed

The day I tried to win
I wallowed in the blood and mud with
All the other pigs

And I learned that I was a liar
Just like you

I was actually thinking about this the other day while listening to Epiphany by Staind.

'Epiphany' by Staind
Your words to me just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear

'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said

So I speak to you in riddles
'Cause my words get in my way.
I smoke the whole thing to my head
And feel it wash away
'Cause I can't take anymore of this,
I wanna come apart,
or dig myself a little hole
Inside your precious heart

'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said

I am nothing more than
A little boy inside
That cries out for attention,
But I always try to hide
'Cause I'll talk to you like children,
Though I don't know how I feel
But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is in fear.

'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said


And this one is pretty Avoidant, too:

'Walter Reed' by Michael Penn
I count the cases piled up high
For the 1:15.
For platform and for passerby
It's the same routine.
I'm ranting while I’m raving,
There's nothing here worth saving.

Tell me now, what more do you need?
Take me to Walter Reed tonight.
Baby I've lost the will for fighting
Over everything.
Well there's a few things I gotta say
And make no mistake, I'm mad…
'Cause every good thing I've had
Abandoned me.

All I want to do is hide.
It's graduation day
And everything I learned inside
Didn't seem to pay.
I've had my fill of palm trees
And lighting up Grauman's Chinese.

Tell me now, what more do you need?
Take me to Walter Reed tonight.
Baby I've lost the will for fighting
Over everything
And there's a few things I gotta say.
Make no mistake, I'm mad.
'Cause every good thing I had
Abandoned me.

A sad and lonesome me.

I'm the walking wounded
And I'd say it to your face
But I can't find my place.

So tell me now, what more do you need?
Take me to Walter Reed tonight.
Baby I've lost the will for fighting
Over everything
And there's a few things I gotta say.
Make no mistake, I'm mad
'Cause every good thing I had
Abandoned me.

A sad and lonesome me.
A sad and lonesome me.
A sad and lonesome me.

Just about anything by Hayden

"Wasting My Days Away"

It's time that I get up
Off of my ass, i'm stuck
Been on this couch for days
Wasting my days away
Wasting my days away

Get rid of my cordless phone
My stereo remote control
My TV and my VCR
This way in life has gone to far
This way in life has gone to far

It's time that I get up
Off of my ass, i'm stuck
Been on this couch for days
Wasting my days away
Wasting my days away
Wasting my days away
Wasting my days away

"Hardly"

could i be the one thing
missing from your life
and from your everyday?
i need you to be beside me,
why don't you call me and we'll see?
i see you having coffee
you are almost beside me,
laughing with your friends.
i tell lorraine to look at you,
i tell her i need to tell you

i don't know you
but i want to
i just can't leave here
without telling you --
just how lonely i've been lately.
you are just as lonely, maybe?
we should go out for some coffee.

i wonder how i can
give you my phone number,
and not be so afraid?
i ask lorraine to give it to you
when i go to the washroom.
i return to the table
i look, but i'm unable
to find you anywhere.
i ask lorraine to look for you,
i tell her i need to tell you

don't know you
but i want to
i just can't leave here
without telling you --
just how lonely i've been lately.
you are just as lonely, maybe?
we should go out for some coffee

on the way out the door
lorraine lets me know that she went up to you
and gave you my number and said
'call him or else he'll be sad.'

and i waited, for two weeks and
i realized that you'd never call me
how could i have been so stupid
i should have gone up to you and
told you myself how you make me feel.

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