Songs for avoidants

i havent been feeling like myself lately...
been looking online for answers and ended up here after a few weeks of sporadic looking.

I like music that expresses the way I feel.

an older band that never 'made it' MINERAL said what i feel on many occasions, if interested, i hope some of you can find thier songs.
it's guitar rock, basically.

MINERAL - Silver
And happiness is just a dream or so it seems
It's something that I can never see
And I just want to lay my head in your arms
And bleed awhile

Sunshine go away I don't want to play
Come back again some other day
When I've got something beautiful to say
And stay awhile

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this next song, i absolutely love, it has brought e to tears so many times... and as the years still pass I can still feel every bit of emotion from it as if it were the first time i really connected to the lyrics.

MINERAL - Slower
It's been so long since I've been by myself
And I need this more than you will ever know
People like you and me never felt the breeze
People like you and me will never know the easy way

I scream into the wind and laugh
As the words slap me in hte face
I would gladly trade a lifetime of convenience
For and honest day or two

It's just not the same when you're staring
Into a perfect golden sunset
And thinking about how you sold your soul
To send the rain away

It's been so long since I've stood on my two feet
I'd really rather lay here and pretend
But people like you and me never get that peace
It comes from denying that everything is so screwed up
It's so screwed up

I stand on a building and throw up my arms to the sky
I swallow my pride and admit
That it's not always best to understand the reason why

It's just not the same when you wake up in the morning
With a smile on your face
When you know you lied yourself to sleep to make it better
To make it better


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things have to be absolutely horrible to actually 'lie yourself to sleep' - i cant say i've ever done that... but i can understand the feeling.
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MINERAL - If I Could
She stepped outside into the morning air
To watch the cars go by and let the sun dry her hair
I wanted to tell her how beautiful she was
But I just stared

I sat behind the wheel and watched the raindrops
As they gathered on the windshield
And raced down into the humming motor
And she folded up her fears like paper airplanes
And lost them in the trees

And I know I don't deserve this
The capacity to feel
To laugh and cry and to praise
For that I live and breathe and wake each day
Is nothing less than your grace
In awkward and glorious movement


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made a mistake of the link in my post
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tUCrls6v ... re=related
Shade by silverchair, enjoy

i would also like to add this song.

its not a song about AvPD, but to me it is encouraging... they cant get the best of me. i worry so much about impressions or waht others think etc, so this helps.

FOO FIGHTERS - Best of You
I’ve got another confession to make
I’m your fool
Everyone’s got their chains to break
Holdin’ you

Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Are you gone and onto someone new?

I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn’t have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can’t choose
I swear I’ll never give in
No, I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
Your trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...

ooooh,oh,oh
ooooh,oh,oh
ooooh,oh,oh
ooooh,oh,oh
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You'd die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
Your trust, you must
Confess

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

I’ve got another confession my friend
I’m no fool
I’m getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new

Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
Your trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!

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ravin, thanks for that song. you tube had the video. i enjoyed it... the singer's story is interesting. recovering addict and alcoholic, bipolar... usedtp work at a mental hospital, until he checked himself i... i could relate to that, seems like somthing i am very capable of doing myself.

More by Morrissey....

How Could Anybody Possibly Know How I Feel?

She told me she loved me
Which means she must be insane
I've had my face dragged
In fifteen miles of $#%^
And I do not
And I do not
And I do not like it
So how can anybody say
They know how I feel
The only one around here who is me
Is me

They said they respect me
Which means their judgment is crazy
I've had my face dragged
In fifteen miles of $#%^
And I do not
And I do not
And I do not like it
So how can anybody say
They know how I feel
When they are they
And only I am I

He said he wants to befriend me
Which means he can't possibly know me
The voices of the real and the imagined cry:
"The future is passing you by
The future is passing you by,"

So how can anybody possibly think they know how I feel?
Everybody look, see pain, and walk away
And as for you in your uniform
Your smelly uniform
You think you can be rude to me
Because you wear a uniform
A smelly uniform
And so you think you can be rude to me

But even I
As sick as I am, I would never be you
Even I
As sick as I am, I would never be you
Even I
Sick and depraved, a traveler to the grave
I would never be you

I would never be you...


I Have Forgiven Jesus

I was a good kid
I wouldn't do you no harm
I was a nice kid
with a nice paper-round
Forgive me any pain
I may have brung to you
with God's help I know
I'll always be near to you
but Jesus hurt me
when he deserted me / but
I have forgiven Jesus
for all the desire
He placed in me when there's nothing I can do
with this desire

I was a good kid
through hail and snow I'd go
just to moon you
I carried my heart in my hand
do you understand?
do you understand?
but Jesus hurt me
when he deserted me, but
I have forgiven Jesus
for all of the love
He placed in me
when there's no-one I can turn to with this love
Monday- humilliation
Tuesday- suffocation
Wednesday- condescension
Thursday- is pathetic
by Friday- life has killed me
by Friday- life has killed me

oh pretty one
oh pretty one
Why did you give me
so much desire?
when there is nowhere I can go
to offload this desire
and why did you give me
so much love
in a loveless world
when there's no one I can turn to
to unlock all this love
and why did you stick me in
self-deprecating bones and skin
Jesus- do you hate me?
Why did you stick me in
self-deprecating bones and skin
do you hate me? do you hate me?
do you hate me? do you hate me?
do you hate me?

Pearl Jam-Corduroy

The waiting drove me mad...
You're finally here and I'm a mess.
I take your entrance back -
Can't let you roam inside my head.

I don't want to take what you can give
I would rather starve than eat your bread.
I would rather run but I can't walk
Guess I'll lie alone just like before.

I'll take the varmint's path
Oh and I must refuse your test
A-push me and I will resist
This behavior's not unique.

I don't want to hear from those who know
They can buy, but can't put on my clothes.
I don't want to limp for them to walk
Never would have known of me before.
I don't want to be held in your debt.
I'll pay it off in blood, let I be wed
I'm already cut up and half dead
I'll end up alone like I began.

Everything has chains, absolutely nothing's changed.
Take my hand, not my picture, spilled my tincture.

I don't want to take what you can give
I would rather starve than eat your bread
All the things that others want for me
Can't buy what I want because it's free
Can't buy what I want because it's free
Can't be what you want because I'm...

I ain't s'posed to be just fun
Oh, to live and die, let it be done.
I figure I'll be damned - all alone like I began...
It's your move now...
I thought you were a friend, but I guess I, I guess I hate you...


Sound of Silence-Simon and Garfunkel

Hello darkness, my old friend
I've come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone
'Neath the halo of a street lamp
I turn my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never shared
No one dared
Disturb the sound of silence

"Fools," said I, "you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you"
But my words like silent raindrops fell
And echoed in the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made
And the sign flashed out its warning
In the words that it was forming
And the sign said "The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls
And whispered in the sound of silence

First time poster, I'd like to add one song, a classic, to the list.

"Nowhere Man" by The Beatles

He's a real Nowhere Man,
Sitting in his Nowhere Land,
Making all his nowhere plans
for nobody.

Doesn't have a point of view,
Knows not where he's going to,
Isn't he a bit like you and me?
Nowhere Man, please listen,
You don't know what you're missin',
Nowhere Man, the world is at your command.

He's as blind as he can be,
Just sees what he wants to see,
Nowhere Man, can you see me at all?

Nowhere Man, don't worry,
Take your time, don't hurry,
Leave it all 'till somebody else
lends you a hand.

Doesn't have a point of view,
Knows not where he's going to,
Isn't he a bit like you and me?

Nowhere Man, please listen,
you don't know what your missin'
Nowhere Man, the world is at your command

He's a real Nowhere Man,
Sitting in his Nowhere Land,
Making all his nowhere plans
for nobody
Making all his nowhere plans
for nobody
Making all his nowhere plans
for nobody

I can relate to this song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ba7lNTuPPXQ