Songs for avoidants

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=82hLvgGuDu8

Waltz #1 by Elliott Smith

Every time the day
Darkens down and goes away
Pictures open in my head
Of me and you, silent and cliché
All the things we did and didn't say
Covered by what we did and didn't do
Going through every out I used to
Cope to make the repetition stop
What was I supposed to say?
Now I never leave my zone
We're both alone, I'm going home
I wish I'd never seen your face

The Dazzled by Crystal Stilts

I sit in the window watching my days from a safe distance
Clock towers toll and I am frozen every instant
Backward I brood and forward I dream for figments of existence
It can't be saved. It's already lost, it thrives on my resistance
We are bound and marching to an ever static distance

Glad to see fans of The Smiths and Morrissey in here.

I`ve been down so long, I cannot see
Any way out of me
I live under rocks and under stones
That`s where I spend my time alone
People don`t know I exist
Their company is never missed
I never see the light of day
Somehow that don`t bother me
Nothing ever changes
I gave up trying
Once I stuck my head above ground
I didn`t like what was around
Crime, disease and poverty
All of this assaulting me
People shove as hard as they can
No one lends a helping hand
You could drop dead in the street
And they`d just laugh hysterically
Nothing ever changes
I gave up trying
Worlds may come and worlds may go
I`ll just stay here down below
Bats and worms are my friends
They`ll stick with me until the end
Don`t want to be a part of your land
`Cause down here I am my own man
I live and hope eternally
For a world filled with peace
Nothing ever changes
I gave up trying

I am necromancing this thread. It helped me rekindle my love of music years ago when I was lost, depressed, and feeling very agoraphobic.

Bullet for my Valentine - "P.O.W."

In my darkest hour
A place where there's no light
I'm trapped here in this nightmare
And there's no end in sight

My body lies here frozen
No voice to scream or shout
Escape, it feels untouchable
I know I must get out

[Chorus:]
Wake my...
Wake myself from all this anger
Claw my...
Claw myself from six feet under
No, no more
Am I stuck here like a prisoner of war
I will breathe once more
I will breathe once more

This feeling's overwhelming
It just won't go away
I'm captive in this nightmare
And this is where I'll stay

[Chorus]

My anxiety is rising
It just won't go away
All this tension keeps building
Please, just leave me to die

Make, make, make it go away
All I wanna do is live another day
Make, make, make it go away
All I wanna do is live another day
Live another day

[Chorus]



Rise Against - "I Don't Want To Be Here Anymore"
(suffering and assertiveness is not limited to violence)

On pins and needles we are waiting for the fall
We count the days scratching lines on the wall
Wait in the wings at someone’s beck and call

No longer recognize the place that I call home
No longer recognize this face as my own
Somewhere, this fate, I lost control

We backed down
We took no for answers far too long
We felt those walls close around

I don’t want to be here anymore
I don’t want to be here anymore

I don’t want to be here anymore (be here anymore)
I know there’s nothing left worth staying for
Your paradise is something I’ve endured
See I don’t think I can fight this anymore (fight this anymore)
I’m listening with one foot out the door
And something has to die to be reborn
I don’t want to be here anymore

On hand and foot we answered every single call
And weathered every day like passing storms
But when they break, we will all be gone

Won’t back down
Won’t take no for answers anymore
These walls close, we pace back and forth

I don’t want to be here anymore (be here anymore)
I know there’s nothing left worth staying for
Your paradise is something I’ve endured
See I don’t think I can fight this anymore (fight this anymore)
I’m listening with one foot out the door
But something has to die to be reborn
I don’t want to be here anymore

The point where we break gets closer everyday
But where do we go?
But where do we go?

I don’t want to be here anymore
I don’t want to be here anymore

I don’t want to be here anymore (be here anymore)
I know there’s nothing left worth staying for
Your paradise is something I’ve endured
See I don’t think I can fight this anymore (fight this anymore)
I’m listening with one foot out the door
But something has to die to be reborn
I don’t want to be here anymore

(We need a better way)
(We need to let go)
[x2]

Anymore
(We need a better way)
(We need to let go)
(We need a better way)

After Hours by The Velvet Underground

1, 2, 3

If you close the door, the night could last forever
Leave the sun shine out and say, "Hello to never"
All the people are dancing and they're havin' such fun
I wish it could happen to me
But if you close the door, I'd never have to see the day again
If you close the door, the night could last forever
Leave the wineglass out and drink a toast to never

Oh, someday I know someone will look into my eyes
And say, "Hello, you're my very special one"
But if you close the door, I'd never have to see the day again
Dark cloudy bars, shiny Cadillac cars
And the people on subways and trains
Looking grey in the rain as they stand disarrayed
Oh the people will dwell in the dark

And if you close the door, the night could last forever
Leave the sun shine out and say, "Hello to never"
All the people are dancing and they're having such fun
I wish it could happen to me
'Cause if you close the door, I'd never have to see the day again
I'd never have to see the day again
Once more
I'd never have to see the day again


IMO this is an anthem for avies

Negra Sombra: http://youtube.com/watch?v=gdnVZE5I8Os

&

Eleanor rigby by Beatles

Does anyone else identify with this? My past relationship was a disaster. I tried to open up but I was mocked often; while they wore their problems on their sleeves. I closed myself off to focus on my child. Then they left.

Slipknot - "Snuff"

Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again...

So if you love me, let me go.
And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care.
I can't destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my fate -
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you...
My smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your lights
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not care.
I think I made it very clear.
You couldn't hate enough to love.
Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend.
Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a saint...
Ooh, my own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go

So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself
And I won't listen to your shame
You ran away - you're all the same
Angels lie to keep control...
Ooh, my love was punished long ago
If you still care, don't ever let me know
If you still care, don't ever let me know...

From "Ashes to Ashes" David Bowie:

I never done good things I never done bad things
I never did anything out of the blue, woh-o-oh
Want an axe to break the ice
Wanna come down right now

Always afraid that's how I'll end up.. living a nothingness by doing nothing, risking nothing, and not really taking any chances or living my life, just hiding away.

This may be a repost, but hello my old heart by the oh hellos

The song 'How soon is now' (originally done by The Smiths but I prefer Love Split love's version) summed up my life pretty well. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TsiUwObwRLw

I am the son
and the heir
of a shyness that is criminally vulgar
I am the son and heir
of nothing in particular

You shut your mouth
how can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
just like everybody else does

I am the son
and the heir
of a shyness that is criminally vulgar
I am the son and the heir
of nothing in particular

You shut your mouth
how can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
just like everybody else does

There's a club if you'd like to go
you could meet somebody who really loves you
so you go, and you stand on your own
and you leave on your own
and you go home, and you cry
and you want to die

When you say it's gonna happen "now"
well, when exactly do you mean?
see I've already waited too long
and all my hope is gone

You shut your mouth
how can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
just like everybody else does