is this result of avpd?

İts obvious and very clear that i suffer from avoidant however psychologists dont say that.....İ have symptoms of schizoid too!...and i was wondering if this is result from avpd?........Like i am 18 years old and i am tired of feeling like this and i just dont want to socialize anymore like i dont enjoy while i am with other people.ç.İf i dont feel like my self and be confident how can i enjoy being there?..i just want to go and be alone....for last 2 years i have been feeling like this it started !.....İwant to socialize but i cant...i am always with my borther and his friends and friends friendss i am just bored of them !....At school aswell i just dont want to i donno!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.......................................İ envy my borther !...i envy everyone who has friends and sociable! even my mother! .................can someone have them both?.....Like i like to socialize an be with people who i know the other people i dont care and dont want to be them anymore!

Hi there HF. Unfortunately, I can't answer your question, I am not sure whether or not 'schizoid' symptoms can be a result of AvPD.

I just wanted to reply to let you know that I sympathize with your plight, and can relate to some degree. You know, there are few people I truly enjoy being around for any length of time. Most people I find a bit of a strain/drain to be around.

I am not too familiar with schizoid personality... isn't a quality of that disorder a disinterest in socialization, whereas with us we crave socialization but it is very difficult or even painful for us to socialize? If that is true, then I would question whether you truly do have schizoid qualities, because it seems obvious that you are upset about your lack of friends and socialization.

If you visit the schizoid forum you'll see that it isn't all that uncommon for AvPD to lead to a schizoid personality. At least that's what many of them say and it does tend to appear multiple times throughout the threads.

I think what happens is that because one feels they will never be able to socialize normally or be accepted for who they are, they begin to feel disdain for the rest of the world. Eventually that disdain smothers all other feelings and they find themselves wanting to be left alone more and more. This is a bit of a hasty explaination of how one goes from AvPD to SPD, but you get the point. Sadness to anger, anger to hate etc. Then one day you find you can just block out all emotion as schizoids do (except lack of feelings just IS for them). So I guess then you would be a sort of pseudo-schizoid. This probably makes no sense.

Anyway, I know what you mean about feeling envy toward those who can talk to anybody with such ease, HF. I used to feel that way, now I don't worry about it. I am me and I can't change that. You CAN learn to forget about them - it's not easy and will take a long time...and you will still be reminded daily of your "issue" - but if you can learn to do it then you'll have greater peace of mind. Trust me. Clear as mud? It's hard to explain.