I went to the dentist for a procedure, and was prescribed vicodan. when taking it, suddenly im not anxious in social situations at all. Small talk with a cashier becomes enjoyable and even gives me a boost. Normally the same interaction is a near panic attack. rumination stops, aand no more shame attacks
I know enough about drugs to know it wasn't sustainable. Nor will I try to chase the feeling
Its just a bummer, maybe the biology of avoidant will be figured in my lifetime