Do you feel that you are making progress against AvPD?

skog wrote:All I am suggesting is that you be careful, think about who you might choose to tell, think about how much you tell, and don't let your expectations be too high in case there is disappointment to follow.

Thanks, skog, I think that is wise counsel. I know for a fact that there isn't one single person that I feel comfortable sharing that I have AvPD. What I would like to share is simply some of the difficulties I have getting close to people, trusting them, and how difficult it usually is not to give in to my desire to isolate, without attaching the label, 'Personality Disorder' (something I haven't even been professionally diagnosed with, anyway).

I'm not sure what I expect from others in terms of what they can do to help me. I think it might feel a bit better to know that someone else knows I am having troubles. I think there could also be a good chance that I might come off as needy, and that can tend to drive away the sort of people I'd like to have in my life, and conversely attract the kind of people I might not like in my life.

I do know that keeping it all to myself isn't working so well anymore. The past few weeks I have been isolating and feeling depressed. All I want to do is lie down, watch tv and escape reality.[/quote]

well @ Air_stryke

i have done that same thing as you did (and hey we are of the same age), unfortunately I'm like a red dot on a blue piece of paper. and just like what the others have said not much great change will happen without proper social support. so right now I'm at the verge of my sanity. I have developed depression.

what I did to alleviate myself is to cry and cry practically wailed.

anyways, you have gained friends your friends who have some of the same shade of color as you have. keep them.

right know, I'm trying to dig it on my head this philosophy, "Be a bitch and make people your friends whether they like it or not. Don't just lie down there."

Ok, I'm still not a bitch and probably my acquiantance don't really hate me that much. BUt I know that they aren't fond of me the way they are with one another but since I'm always there, they stay with me.

I don't know. But something has got to start.

in short, I'm still probably in 0.000000...1% of my recuperation

ok rewind I've progressed for some percent right now.

I just made contact with some old friend who I never talked to ever again right after he said he loves me. Ok it was through e-mail but I still made contact.

Thank God for the internet.

P.S. I'm cheering for the happiness of all of us with AvPD