How to rebuild your bubble

lilyfairy wrote:I had a manager wanting to pick faults with the way I deal with customers before. Little do they understand how much energy it takes just to deal with customers in the first place.

Yes I'm happy I have better job now, and I'm happy most people I liked left.

At the time I was very isolated, and I told that colleague : he's isolating me, then he'll try to do the same with this and this person.

This manager tried to make people hate each other. People didn't react. As if people had sort of natural trust towards managers.

I had time to recover now.

Philonoe wrote:
I had time to recover now.

Well last night I had still bad dream about job.

Hugs Philonoe

Thank you Lily.

I need to rebuild my bubble. I was moved by some issue with family members and showed it, instead of keeping good distance.

Maybe a walk will help.


Or maybe try to write sort of poem? To give shape to how I feel

Sometimes the plan to keep distance from family doesn't work out as well in practice. Over the holiday period I know I ended up spending way more time with my family than I'd intended to. Granted, I wanted to spend some time with my brother and his wife while they're back in the country, but it turned into whole days out where it was harder to hide and find moments to recharge.

I have to make sure I allow quiet time the next day. Often it doesn't even need to be anything in particular to actively vent things, just quiet time to tune out. I've been dealing with chronic fatigue, and when I've done too much it comes out as tiredness, a sore throat (unnerving with covid around) and muscle aches. Right now, a day at work has me totalled the next day. I have to pick and choose what I spend my energy on.

Sending hugs.

Thank you Lily.

Bubble broken just now. I plan some time alone to recharge. It's ok.

It's ok but I still feel this stupid internal tension.

I had some news from some people who give me stress.

I wish I could forget them and sleep.

How can someone I admired and I was so close to, be so insupportable to me.

I try to escape them. They invade me with phone calls and messages, even during the night.

But when something important happens, they don't tell me.

Family.




Maybe martial arts can help me. I think it gives internal security, and tools to fight.

I think finding any outlet that is a healthy way to get things out is a good thing. If that's martial arts for you- go for it.

These days I let a lot more calls go to messagebank, and hold off on replying to text messages (admittedly, I do often just forget to), until I'm in a headspace to reply.

Families are hard. Sending hugs.

I had some issue at work. I did some mistake - probably due to lack of information - and they were very angry at me.
Consequences are not heavy - someone had to work a little bit more that day to fix it. Probably they forgot it already.
I can't. I can't take distance, although it happened some days ago.

I don't know why it moves me so much.