How to rebuild your bubble

Gentle hugs to jamberrypie and Philonoe.

Last week I had a few days when my bubble was super strong. I felt self-contained. It was an unusual feeling, a good one. It's gone now and I feel like an old leaf that has become very delicate and full of holes.

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My usual coping strategy is to stay in bed and hide. I need to get up and try self-care and self-soothing instead. It's hard because my mind wants to zone out and float away, I can't focus.

Thank you

Last night i didn't sleep. Didn't and didn't and didnt.
Tried some plants
Finally i got out of my bed and took some paintings. I began to write sentences. About emotions. Anxiety. Sadness. Insecurity. I drew and wrote what came in my mind. The sheet was full of sentences. Lots of sentences. Then other sentences. Until sentences changed little by little and expressed like other parts of myself.
Then i slept.

So one year ago i began this thread.

I think changing job was necessary to rebuild bubble.

Now it's better. Still fragile. Some days yes, some days no.

It was good decision.

Philonoe wrote:So one year ago i began this thread.

I think changing job was necessary to rebuild bubble.

Now it's better. Still fragile. Some days yes, some days no.

It was good decision.

Congratulations Philonoe on changing the job! That is wonderful!

I was wondering how you managed to change it in your circumstances. I tried a number of times to change mine, as I clearly see that it is the source of discontent. However, it is difficult to make it at the interview when people can see that there is something bothering you. What was the thing that made you suceed in your opinion?

Here some things that helped me

- The job context had become so difficult that i had to have a medical stop to be able little by little to rebuild my bubble.

- in the first interview i mentioned issues with new manager. It was bad idea. I never did that anymore.
There are many reasons you have to need to change job. Better choose the less emotional.

After some interviews i learned not to wait for the question. I said myself "i did this and that and that then worked there and now for this reason i'm interested in working here".


I hope it helps

I think the big bubble break from job is healing slowly. Sometimes it comes back - with less intensity.

I try to protect myself from family bubblebreaks too. There was one this morning. I went for a walk. It helps a little.

I think i have definitely fragile bubble. I try to make it a little stronger and find ways to rebuild it

It depends if the thing that damaged the bubble causes long term issues or short. If I'm outside and trying to say get food I will usually hide in the bathroom stalls to calm down and get my bubble patched up as having no one look at me helps. My assistance dog helps me avoid things that damage my bubble by snapping me out of it and if my bubble gets too damaged by being outside I will hide away at home for a few days.

If something big damaged my bubble then sadly it can take months years to get rid of the cracks and I end up needing friends and family on top of my assistance dog to basically put scaffolding on my bubble so I can go outside.

So i invested all energy in the new job. worked a lot, adapted myself. Invested time and heart. And i had always short contracts. Tomorrow better. Then tomorrow comes and it's not better. This year worse. Insomnia.
I thought : well i'll apply in other places... and maybe tomorrow better

Then suddenly i'm contacted by a place where i applied long time ago. They offer stable contract.

It's good news.

Part of me wants to stay where i am.

And if there was a stable contract in the future. And if tomorrow better.

Philonoe wrote:And if there was a stable contract in the future. And if tomorrow better.

Could it be the voice telling you to distrust your intuition?

Thank you. That sounds very accurate.