So I'm done with uni for the year and now have 4 months of complete freedom ....to stare at walls.....mope around the house.....catch up on random t.v. shows and become an even bigger recluse.
I have been looking for a job for over a year and halted my research for a while to focus on my grades which were on a downward spiral. Now I feel like I missed my chance because it seems like all the stores in my small town did their Christmas hiring already. There are 0 jobs available. Even KFC and Mcdonalds are not hiring.
I got to the interview stage at a big retailer but everyone was either younger than me or/and had a lot of experience. I'm not surprised they didn't pick me. And here is another issue. I'm 20 with 0 experience. I feel like that's completely unheard of where I live. Plus coupled with my AVPD, I'm literally an employer's worst nightmare. Whenever an employer asks me if I have any previous experience, I literally freeze with shame and embarrassment. I stutter my way through some mumbled non-nonsensical answer. I don't know what to say to them? I mean I wouldn't hire me so I don't expect someone else to hire me either.
I wouldn't care if I didn't need a job SO bad. Now that I'm out of school I really don't get to talk to many people. University is not like High School where you were forced to interact with others. I feel like I'm forgetting how to talk to people and how to behave in normal social settings. It's been terrible for my language skills too because I don't get to practice my English much. I also need the money really really bad. My current laptop is my mom's and it's pretty much on it's last legs. I need a laptop for a course I'll be studying online during the holidays. Having a car sounds great too. I'm seriously desperate and annoyed.