butter blossom wrote:It seems as though I am learning to deal with avpd as I get older. Ihave pretty much had this disorder all my life,and it like I know how to control it and make it better. Now that I know all the symptoms of the disorder, I can go on the necessary steps to do something about it.
Well, your experience sort of applies to mine. It's not easier to deal with, but as time has gone on I have been dealing with it. I guess for me, it got so bad after a long time without treatment that I hit sort of a bottom, where I wanted to die. It was a choice to seek help or to commit suicide, and I was too chicken for suicide.
It certainly does help to have the symptoms identified, which makes it easier to treat the core causes. I'm afraid I'm not smart enough to treat myself on my own, I needed a qualified, compassionate therapist. I tried on my own for years but with my limited perception and lack of tools I stumbled and fell hard.
I'm curious to hear about the steps you are taking to treat yourself, make yourself better. Care to share?