So for several months now I have speculated that I might suffer from either a personality disorder (obsessive compulsive) or an autism spectrum disorder. After bringing it up with family and my primary care doctor I was sort of laughed at and not taken very seriously. It didn't really hurt my feelings much because I realize that seeking a diagnosis as an adult is more challenging.
Anyways, I finally went to a Neuropsychologist and went in and put my chips on the table. In the past this question was in the back of my mind with former therapists, but I was always too embarrassed to bring it up. So I walked right in and said I am here for a possible ASD diagnosis so I couldn't chicken out.
After about 3 minutes of continually explaining to him my symptoms, he looked up at me and said "I agree". Apparently he assessed my communication style and came to the conclusion that there is a strong possibility I may be autistic. We discussed it further over the course of the next hour and he said that there is a good chance I am autistic, but that it would be a marginal case where a formal diagnosis would only help if I wanted to use it to explain my limitations to employers.
I decided not to get the formal diagnosis right away. I am not sure how I feel about the whole thing. Part of me really wants to know, but part of me thinks that it might be better not to label myself. I have overcome a lot of my challenges on my own, and it was a painful and depressing process, and I think that a formal diagnosis might result in feelings of hopelessness for overcoming some other things I struggle with.
Anyways, I guess I was just wondering if anybody could offer advice, not necessarily on whether to get the diagnosis or not, but maybe how to handle my feelings about it.