coming to terms with autism

I've been trying to fight autism my whole life, I believe I had it beaten out of me and developed bpd because of it.

I am high functioning and i get misdiagnosed npd a lot but i take advice literally which made my previous psychologist look bad.

I still have not been officially diagnosed because i am high iq but my longest relationship is only a measly 2 months.

I am on medication for bpd, my autistic symptoms are: lack of empathy, communication problems, narrow range of topics, trouble with eye contact, social awkwardness with the opposite sex, hard to change routines.
I constantly analyze my social interactions because i lack feeling and i also need to try cognitively put myself in the other persons shoes.

Anyway I can't decide whether to date only autistic women or not. I think it's my only hope but i am unsure if it's a match?

I guess we could read books all day together and analyze the world and other people's problems to separate ourselves from our own...

Is there any therapy for autism? I've driven myself completely nuts trying to act normal my whole life.