I've been looking for where my disorder belongs for a very long time.
I currently go to therapy for dissociative disorder (DD-NOS), but we came to realize there is more to it than just dissociation.
what brought me here is that I have some "habits" or compulsions that don't fit in with OCD or Tourette's. and I saw somewhere that "unusual" compulsions are common in people on the spectrum.
so here is the story
since I started talking (as a child) which was early at about age of 1-2 years old I've had social problems both within and outside the family.when I was a child I wouldn't play with other kids but I was good at doing things right and in my own ways.
at school I was good at nearly everything specially math that I got full score in very frequently. but my teachers couldn't understand how I was solving the problems and I couldn't explain it to them either. I had no friends at school and my parents were contacted by my teachers several times, saying that I did very well at school but I was isolated from the other kids and I couldn't explain myself to the teachers. when I was in 10th grade my math teacher told me: "you have a logically structured brain but you need to show us that structure for us to understand what you're doing". I replied: "I can't"
I've also had these "habits" since I was 1-2 years old that appear as tension buildup in some body parts. that is like a signal that tells me to do one or more of the habits.there is no anxiety or any other thoughts or feelings involved in doing these habits. it's very difficult to resist and if I try to then I get a range of physical difficulties (from physical pain, difficulties breathing to involuntary motions):
1-I repeat everything that I see, hear,feel or think
2-I say/express everything I'm thinking. when I was a child my teachers contacted my parents saying that I had an unusual body language and I frequently whispered things or talk to myself. my parents explained that this is what I do when I'm thinking. I wasn't conscious about doing this back when I was a kid and I realized it after my family and my teachers started talking to me randomly about what I was thinking at that moment , and told me that I said everything I was thinking.
I'm in my mid 20's atm and I still have to remind myself to stay conscious of what I'm doing when I doing my habits
the intensity of those habits vary throughout the day. they intensify as I become more emotionally involved with what I'm doing or the surroundings, meaning that I have to do more to ease the tension. (examples for habit 2: the intensity can range from only swallowing or eye movement, tongue and throat movement, sub-vocalization, lip movement,head movement, arm or leg movement to doing several of the above at the same time).
even though it's easier to control things when emotions are not strong, the habits never go totally away. people that don't know me very well are usually shocked by my body language and/or my habits because it looks like I'm talking to someone when all I'm doing is just thinking about normal daily things. this is one part of my social problems.
I have other social problems as well including:
1-I can't understand when it's my turn to speak specially when it's more than 4 people talking in group. it usually works fine in groups of 4 or less because I've been trying to learn some signs of when is someone finished talking etc. but it becomes a lot harder as the number increases
2- when people are talking in the background, I find it hard to filter those out and keep listening to the person I'm talking to
3-when someone asks a question, I have no idea what they're interested in hearing so I just tell them everything I know if it doesn't involve secrets or personal things. I also don't understand if someone is bored or interested in what I'm saying. that means I'm terrible in having "casual conversations" or small chitchats
4-when people are talking about random things I find it hard to follow again make it impossible to have small chat
I don't have any obsessive long-term interests per say, but when I'm interested in something, I work on it for hours every day until I know everything about the subject then I move on to something else