Need some help/suggestions

So I struggle to eat food. This is not anorexia or anything to do with my weight - I just seem to struggle really badly to find food to eat, find food that I LIKE, and to cook meals in general. I don't know how to explain it; it's quite hard to force myself to eat foods when I'm not in the mood to eat it and sometimes I eat food but it makes me feel gross. It doesn't, like, make my stomach hurt, there's just this weird thing where sometimes when I'm eating a food, it's near-impossible to force myself to choke it down and eat it because for some reason I'll just feel Gross when eating foods sometimes. Almost nausea, but it's not a physical feeling. It's not specific foods that cause me that feeling, it can literally be any food, regardless if I know for a fact that I usually love the food.

For those reasons, trying to eat food is horribly difficult to a point I often starve myself throughout the day and often get angry and upset to a point of self-harm and breakdowns. It's a constant battle every single day of my life trying to find food to eat.

This has been a problem for years now and I'm only struggling worse and worse because I've been going through health problems for a little over a year now. I've been diagnosed with IBS (though I strongly suspect it's IBD. I'll be seeing my doctor again in a couple days).
So far, soup is a bad trigger for my IBS, which is really upsetting because making soups/stews/etc. was one of the biggest ways I could get more vegetables in my diet.
I've tried spending so much time trying to find recipes online for foods to eat and I just struggle constantly. It's like any food could become unsafe for me at any moment and every day of my life is a battle trying to force myself to eat food.
But the thing is I really desperately need to have a healthier diet with more vegetables and fruits. The fruits are the easy part - grapes, bananas, apples, etc. are all things I can eat on their own.
The problem is the vegetables.

Usually autistic/ADHD people often don't like vegetables, but thankfully I actually do like vegetables. I just don't know what meals to make to get myself to eat more vegetables, other than soups or stews since those tend to worsen my IBS symptoms

I guess I was just wondering if anyone else has this problem or has had it or if anyone has suggestions. I've tried so many times to find recipes online to no avail - it's all either dishes I wouldn't like or dishes I've never had and would struggle to get myself to try.

I guess I just wanna know other ways I can have a good meal with plenty of vegetables in it? Again, other than soups or stews. It's easy to have some vegetables raw as a sort of snack, but I need actual MEALS. I barely eat as is and eating raw vegetables throughout the day is not exactly a Meal.

I use califlower and broccoli, boil them. Then put some kind of cream sauce on it. Some butter, flour and milk, then add cheese. So cheese sauce I guess. Then you can add stuff like beans if you want protein. Otherwise carrots as snacks with a little mayonnaise/garlic dip.

Don't know, I am not the healthiest of eaters, but I survived so far.