Can I stop Obsessions?

One time my parent's said, in the name of Christianity I should fast from the things I was obsessed with. Boy did that go wrong. =.=
After no longer than three days I started to feel sick. I mean really sick. I had become so extremely depressed. I just layed in bed for most of the day. I didn't even know how to function. It's like as I soon as I lost obsession I lost the drive to live. It's like my obsessions are the very thing that makes me tick. I like to view my obsession with personal drive but this is something different. I feel like without those interests those "obsessions" I become nothing more than a shell.....lifeless and meaningless. Infact I don't think I ever stopped becoming obsessed I just had severe withdrawals over the things I was obsessed about. And how do you deal with having obsessions that nobody cares about?
I don't even want to list my obsessions...they come with so many bad memories.....and somebody on the net might figure out who I am based on them......I feel like a freak.
(ok......one of my obsessions is Japan and everything related to the country but I don't view Japan as a "perfect utopia" like some idiots do.....infact there is a fair amount of xenophobia in the Country.)
And people treat me like a freak of nature for liking anything Japanese at all.....which is why I try to hide the fact I am interested in Japan from most people. I fear the label of "Japanophle, Wapanese, Yellow fever, Asiaphile, Asian fetish, Japlover, Wook, Egg" and other derogatory statements I have been called. I prefer to do all my Japan related things in a way that people cannot find out. People finding out that I even have a slight interest in Japan can have very undesireable consequences. This leads people to think I am antisocial...but I have to have time and do what I enjoy. I know they don't care a thing about Japan and maybe even hate the country...so I must go alone to enjoy things like Japanese Dramas, movies, animated shows, comics, games, cooking the food, listening to the music, reading books on the country, studying the language, learning the rocks songs on the guitar, ect. And then I am pressured to get away from doing these things all the time because it's being "anti-social"....but I have to have some time for it. They say things like "why don't you listen to just American rock? We invented it!"...and they say racist xenophobic remarks...so I seek seclusion to escape the horrible things they have to say...but at the same time I miss their company...but I don't want to conform and stop enjoying Japanese things just because they are intolerant. I don't want to have to deal with hearing "Japan sucks" all day....and I don't like being called anti-social because I won't give up more than neccesary from my day to do things I enjoy. I got in trouble a few years(back when I was 15) back for hitting one my relatives because he called my favorite Japanese celebrities a bad name....um..yeah..
Just being interested in Japanese stuff makes people assume you are nerdy and antisocial but I am quite outgoing. But they all say "keep that Jap crap to yourself" so I do......
I mean I love hanging out with people....I can't go without it.
But i've become very wary about telling people my interests.
I've been treated kinda badly for having interest in the Country....and the more people tell me how stupid it is the more I want to do it. Lately...I just want to run outside and scream at the top of my lungs. I want to break things. Lately...I have even been vomiting over emotional things....what wrong with me?
There I went rambling...i'm very sorry. *sigh*
I feel that my resentment for people who dislike me for having these interests piling up. These derragatory things said about the country. The feelings of affection for the people I spent time with when I was in Japan. I fear the next time I face something like this I may become very violent......what do I feel?....I feel bitterment...I feel violent....I feel destructive. I no longer think I feel as creative as I used to. I used always be productive, creat artworks and such....now I just feel like destroying things. I feel like taking my guitar with Japanese band stickers on it and breaking all the windows I can with it. I want to turn my Japanese Death Metal up so loud that the whole World can hear it sending Earth shattering vibrations throughout the World.
Please someone respond to this, and please, try to be positive.
I'm feeling rather fragile right now.

Hi, chaosdream, don't let other peoples' limitations and stupidity get you down. I heard a psychologist that has Aspergers patients say on the radio a few months ago that the reason Aspies like anime is because the facial expressions of the characters are easy to read. I watched Miyasaki's Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind last night. It was great, I loved it. Have you seen it?

you know, it isn't Japan or anything about it (culture, geology, people, traditions, langugage, history...etc) that's the problem. The problem is something...some force (outside yourself, in a way) that is controlling you...your thoughts...your behaviors...your emotions. It seems to be impairing your ability to have two-sided experiences with others.

People respond to that angrily because to them it seems like you're being self-absorbed and disinterested in them. Even if you asked them "how are you?" or "how was your day?" could you mean it and sincerely want to know?

hey, this is me..
Yeah i've seen Nausicaa...I particularly like Miyazaki films...they are so warming. I think the reason I got interested in anime was the fact that the style of the characters appealed to a certain aesthetic in my brain. I've always been an artful person. I like art. I like visual things. I am indeed a very visual person. Maybe the expressions have something to do with it as well. When asking "how are you" i'm not sure how much I care. It's just something you get in the habit of saying. I care for others...but I have the tendancy to talk more than listen. When younger I often talked out of place....and talked far too loud. I still have a problem with these two things. When I was very little and went over to people's houses there came a time that I had to leave but I never wanted to. Not acknowledging the fact they might have wanted time back with their family and I was only just company. I didn't want to back to feeling alone again. Strangely....I sometimes feel alone in a group...I don't think I feel so much this way anymore. I have a kind of desperate outgoing nature as if to give me that hugging feeling i've never had. I can come off as overbearing sometimes. I didn't know how to pick up on signals that the person wanted to be alone. Lately...sometimes I just lay in bed...sad feeling.

Why has my username been changed to "helpingbro"?

I've had many obsessions over the years. I currently have an obsession for New Zealand, which drives my parents mad. I went through a stage where I'd spend hours reading about the country's history, geography etc. every day and wouldn't stop talking about it. I'd still really like to go there soon.

Before that, I was obsessed with the actor Jim Carey. I used to watch his films over and over again, and try to copy his facial expressions.

My weirdest obsession is with words. I make word lists and study the dictionary.


Mathal.

I lost some of my obsession because I got convinced to it by a friend and I it didn't work out for the better.

Now I try to rebuild it instead-

Let's see. In the past few years, I have had several Japanese students staying with me for portions of the summer to tour the area I used to live in. I am fond of oriental dolls and plates and most anything decorative. I even follow an oriental religion. None of that has made my family all too happy but oh well. I am on my own with kids and a husband who don't feel the need to put me down for this. I have a special section of the living room to display my oriental treasures and my Buddhist shrine.

I see little if any therapeutic value in forced fasting.

if you like heavy music check out the band Boris or mind of asian. i currently have an obsession with Orange Amplifiers, the kind that the guitarist of Boris plays.

both bands, Boris and mind of asian are AMAZING!!!

must warn you though, if you don't like abrasive music don't listen to them 'cuz both bands are VERY heavy indeed!