
Hi, I'm new around here, I don't know it these type of topics are allowed in this forum but I just don't have anywhere else to go...
I have never been diagnosed with AS, I am from Mexico and AS is not very known over here.
I've always been anti-social, when I was younger, I had friends, but I was always quiet and introverted. The teachers would constantly tell my mother that I was very quiet, they all said I was shy and we left it there.
I got obsessed over things but not very unusual things, I am very good at drawing, so I would lock myself in my room all day and draw. I would get seriously obsessed with tv shows or bands, but this obsession thing increased as the years went by. When I was about 10, I had a favorite band, I made a picture album of this band and I would carry it everywhere, even when I was in my house, I wouldn't leave the room without it. I get obsessed with diseases, people, books, movies, stuff like Peter Pan or a song, things like that...
I have a lot of troubles meeting new people, most of the times I don't know what to say, or say stuff that they don't get, or I get nervous and say something really silly. I do have friends but sometimes I get uncomfortable even with them, sometimes I find it hard to find something to say so I start to talk about music or some other thing and I get nervous...
I have an active imagination.
I find it easier to talk to children and feel much more comforable around adults or children than around people my own age, and I also find it easier to be in the company of animals.
I also always think I'm gonna die, I always think I have terminal diseases, or that people close to me are gonna die.
When I was younger, I would follow my little brother everywhere, even in my own house, cause I got scared I thought maybe someone would kidnapp him...
I have very few people with whom I feel like I can be myself...
I am in College now, and I can't make friends, the teachers think I'm snobby cause of this, and everyone thinks I hate them, but I don't, I just don't know how to talk to them or what to say.
I also have trouble looking people in the eye, and I tend to make a lot of faces...
I think because of this lack of social skills, I tend to drink a lot during parties and stuff like that, because I can talk to people like that, though not serious conversation.
I also sometimes think I have attention deficit, I sometimes get depressed cause of nothing, have a lot of mood swings.
But on the other side, I don't have a lot of "symptoms" and I would like to know if maybe I could have it or something similar. I don't feel uncomfortable in crowds, I don't mind loud noises that much, I am not very clumsy though I sometimes drop stuff.
I never liked sports or team work, I feel stupid when I run. I like to sleep a lot and I eat a lot too, though I am not overweight.
I don't know if AS can increase as you grow up, because for me, seems like it did, or maybe I just think more about it now and never realised something was wrong then...
I really don't know if I could have AS, I recently found out about this and thought maybe this would be the answer...
Please help me, I have nowhere else to go..