Extreme distress, found out I don't have AS.

The psychologist says I don't have Asperger's or HFA or PDD-NOS or any of that.

Apparently these last couple years of my life were just one big fit of hypochondria. Fantastic... What's the point of going on this forum now? How do I explain ANY of the things I do that I previously attributed to AS?

Why do half the things I say make me seem impatient and angry when I'm not?
Why am I good at math and have photographic memory, but have no creativity?
Why don't I have any empathy?
Why do I take everything literally?
Why do I love routine so much that I'd be comfortable doing the same thing every day for the rest of my life?
Why am I not anxious around people I perceive as being weird/different?
Why is my thinking so black and white?
Why do I have the powerful urge to correct people when they're wrong?
Why can't I get something done unless someone tells me to do it?
Why do I sound like a complete fool when I try to describe my emotions?
Why do I talk to myself?
Why do I have to force myself to make eye contact and smile?
Why don't I know how something is going to sound before I say it?

All of these questions, I could have just thought, "Yep, Asperger's." All of my weird behaviors made me SO sure I had it. I thought it was impossible that I DIDN'T have it.

And the psychologist knew RIGHT AWAY that I didn't have it. My mom just laughed about it and told me nothing is wrong with me and that if she ever thought there was, she would have taken me to a therapist much earlier in life.

It's like... being in a wheelchair and being told your legs work perfectly and that you will have to do everything the same way a regular person does it. How does a person in a wheelchair go up stairs? With great frustration, humiliation, and sorrow.

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Edit: Hopefully this doesn't make it seem like I tried to use AS as a "crutch" of sorts.

*pass blunt* chiiilllll out dude. It doesnt matter if you have it or not. You still had the issues. If they are identifiable with the issues AS folk have, who better to seek opinions from than people with similiar issues?

I haven't a clue if I would have aspergers or not. Doesn't really change the fact that the issues I face are similar to what the aspies face. So regardless, we can brainstorm about the issues together. And besides, Im sure an NT perspective on things can be of great use to aspies. Who better to learn about NT behavior than from an NT themself?

They help me, I can help them sometimes. A big circle of help.

But I feel you. I get constantly told there's nothing wrong too. Put up illusions when you can so people dont see whats wrong, and they see nothing. My/possibly your inability to really express stuff can really shoot us in the foot when TRYING to explain whats wrong.

I understand well where you are coming from. Some time ago I asked a therapist if he thought it was possible if I had AS. We had only met once at this point and only to test for how severe my depression was. He did not ask any AS related questions, he did not explain why he thought I did not have it. Instead he went into hysterics, telling me I wasn´t "one of those people". When I asked if he could elaborate so I could understand what his conclusion was based on, he only laughed louder and told me that he "just knew".

It was a humiliating experience. In the end he did not care to see if I was as capable as I can make myself look. As much as I would like to respect him as a professional, after having been laughed at openly and denied further insight I can´t. My problems remain and I enjoy being here.

If you identify with the problems that come with AS and feel comfortable around here, I don´t see why you would have to leave. Tough luck with your username though.

Camelidae wrote: Tough luck with your username though.

Well he could always say he works at mcdonalds

I was originally ADHDiagnosed with AS traits. Recently, full AS diagnosis. There is still a chance of those traits being AS, like my half hearted diagnosis.

Can you ask for a second opinion? I think this is often possible in the medical profession ... I am no expert, but I strongly suspect that getting or not getting an accurate diagnosis may have more to do with the specialist knowledge of the person you end up seeing, especially as an adult.

Like others have said, if you identify with the some of the topics on this site, then this is a good place for you to be, regardless of whether you have a diagnosis.

I agree with positivelyportrayed. Try to get a second opinion and see if they have experience in dealing with Asperger's and Autism Spectrum Disorders. I've been diagnosed over several dozen labels since childhood. I had to find a psychiatrist who specialized in autism spectrum disorders and she diagnosed me within 30 minutes.

A lot of therapists are very ignorant about Asperger's syndrome. It's so irritating.

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The psychologist says I don't have Asperger's or HFA or PDD-NOS or any of that

The psychologist could be wrong, 'experts' are like everyone else, you do get c##p ones sometimes. Get another opinion. I don't see how he could know 'right away' anyway.
You do sound like you have aspies.
Find someone who has lots of experience with aspies.

Google disorders that have very similiar characteristics as Aspergers.--there is a page somewhere that has several listed.

On that note, get a second opinion. Doctors make mistakes. Is your psychologist well versed in ASD's? If not, get one that specifically deals with autism related disorders.

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