Hi, I would be grateful to know if you think that what I am about to describe sounds like AS. I have looked at the diagnostic criteria and feel that some of it applies, but not all of it.
Socially I am quite awkward. I have always had friends, because I make people laugh, but I have always been an outsider and the one who was picked on. At the moment I have a very nice group of friends that do not pick on me. I don’t really say inappropriate things, partly because I don’t really talk much (this is because I never know what to say and I am not really interested in their conversations (I much prefer my own thoughts because I find them more interesting, but whenever I voice them no-one else does for example the place where the rain stops so you could stand there and half of you would be rained on and the other half wouldn’t.), although having said that I am able to engage in social “chit chat” sometimes I am genuinely interested, however it is mostly strained. I prefer going to the cinema because there is no pressure to make conversation and afterwards you can talk about the movie. I hate phone conversations; I am never sure when to speak or what to talk about. I’m not too bad at body language, I know when somebody is angry, sad, happy, upset or tired, but I never know how to respond. I’m not so good at the subtler bits, e.g. flirting, I have no clue there, nor do I recognise when someone is flirting with me, (I don’t think that ever happens though). Some times it’s nice to socialise with my friends, but most of the time I would be happier to sit in my room playing the Sims and watching Buffy the vampire slayer, which has been my main my “obsession” for the last three years. I also develop mini obsessions, these do not last that long and are less intense. When I get stressed out I shake my arm or rock, I also hit my face, a bit harder than tapping, but not violently, because I like the calmness it brings. My routine isn’t that important, I have an order that I do things in but I’m not to bothered if it’s disrupted. Ideally I like to know before hand, but it’s not too bad.
I think that’s about it, so I’d be grateful for any feed back.
Thanks,
Chloe