Once you get a job, then maybe we can talk about becoming a god.
I can relate though, I haven't completely given up that I have a meaningful role to play in the world, and I mean on an almost delusional grandiose level. And maybe I do, who knows, maybe you do too.
But one of the best things someone told me was "You're not that special." Not in a mean way, but a grounding one. If I die tomorrow, how many people out of a few billion will notice? A microscopic percentage, even less if I consider all of time. I am just a blip on the map.
But I find it empowering. It means my life is what I make it, the meaning it has is the meaning I create. To quote He-Man "I have the power!" But it means S*** if all I do is talk about what I am gonna do.
So for now, I have short term goals.
1) graduate
2) finish #1
So seriously, job first. Put your money where your mouth is. Then maybe I will entertain the god idea. I post this with love, and you and I are very similar btw, though I think you are a bit more angry.
