New guy coming in...!

Hey everyone. My aunt actually directed me to this place, because for one thing;
There aren't any support groups for a guy like me within 100 miles of my home. It's so far I wouldn't drive there if the gas was free.
And for another;
That first one just about covers it.

Right now I'm in a transient state. I'm going to be heading off to college, finally, and I'm getting a place of my own before that.
I know that nothing comes easy, but I'm going to level with you all, by saying that I wanted to die just a little over two weeks ago. I went from place to place, getting my meds checked up and making sure I was in a safe enough mindset to head home. None of the staff at these luxurious locales helped me to realize that I had something to live for. Guess what I live for.

Myself. Life is indeed precious, but one might as well not live it if it's absolutely for someone else. I'm not advocating self harm, I'm simply trying to articulate that living for other people is not healthy. What happened with me is that I realized I could die at any moment anyway. What many people don't realize is that there's an infinitesimally small chance of anything happening to go wrong in chance percentages so small you'd need to wait billions of years if nothing about the entire universe changes to allow it to happen right now.
With this new found confidence, I decided if my life was to be taken while crossing the street, so what? I'm in the act of bettering myself. If I killed myself on the spot, no one would be able to say I tried to make something of my life.

So, I guess what I'm saying is, while you may lean too far back in your chair and break your neck when you land, or you somehow create antimatter and get vaporized, you weren't wasting your time.

Also, since this is my first real attempt to try and explain things about myself, I'm very interested in the field of physics, I love to draw (it's therapeutic), it makes me angry when people don't know how to spell words or use proper grammar, I taught myself how to sharpen any blade to a razor's edge (also therapeutic), I love metals, and I think guinea pigs are utterly awesome.

Hi,

I think it was your aunt whom I was talking to in the previous week, and she said that she would direct you here. Welcome anyway... ...Physics is a very interesting area but I never had the chance to study it too much. is there any particular area of physics that you are mostly interested in? For me, I always enjoyed studying Photonics. In reality, however, my career has gone down the 'Biology' route. What is your 1st choice as a course for college?

Hmmm, I wanted to say something else but cannot now remember. oh yeh, I got it now: You're right about how living life for someone else isn't good. We have to focus on ourselves and sometimes just not care about anyone else. It's not cruel/mean to do this - it's just something that has to be done if we want to stay afloat in life.

Take care dude.

Oh, the website has been having trouble recently, but it usually repairs 'itself' in a few hours from the time the trouble starts.

Kevin

Yes, my aunt had talked to you before. I didn't want to show up to a new forum and suddenly start dropping the names of moderators like I was somebody special.
As far as physics go, the entire field of study is interesting to me, but what I'm most interested in would have to be both theoretical and quantum physics, with astrophysics close behind.

Astrophysics - Yeh - I forgot to mention that. We actually had a thread about religion here recently where we eventually ended-up discussing quantum physics and dark energy/matter somehow. Is it physics that you intend to do in college? I wish that I had the opportunity to study cosmology or astrophyics at college, but there is only one course in Ireland that offers it, and it wasn't available back when I was choosing my courses.

Kevin

Yes, it's my goal to get a degree in physics. I've enjoyed other topics of study, but never have I been so enamored with a single field. All it;ll take me is some hard work and perseverance, and I'm sure I'll make a name for myself .

I think I first got really interested when I realized how weather happens. Weather is the atmosphere's response to the amount of energy given to it by the sun. It's also the result of our own contributions to the atmosphere, and even our motion through it. Fluid dynamics are extremely interesting to me, and none of it would happen if it wasn't for the differences in density from one fluid to another, and the interactions between electrons from all types of matter.

Grossenschwamm wrote:If I killed myself on the spot, no one would be able to say I tried to make something of my life.

I understand this sentence very well, and I completely agree.
I know many aspies are having troubles with anxiety, and I know I myself, too, tried to kill myself some time ago.

But I keep hanging on to just that thought - how many people would I let down? I don't want them to think I didn't try!

So I hang on.

I am equally fascinated about meteorology, Grossenschwamm. The air in the atmosphere is a fluid and it therefore follows fluid dynamical laws. I've always found it strange to think that winds are generated merely by changes in pressure, but that's how it works. We are at the mercy of weather though - It can be so powerful, enough to bring us to our knees.

I mostly learned about meteorology by reading aviation books though.