update

Haven't been on here for a while so I thought I would update you on what's happened.

I went on that holiday to Germany. My bfs gran was horrible to me, moaning every time I said something in English, moaning at me for not understanding what she said in German, and moaning at my bf for translating for me.

So we spent a lot of time sightseeing and playing table tennis on our own.

The rest of his family was really nice to me though, and in a way it was nice to just sit back and let the conversation wash over me, knowing that I wasn't expected to take much part in it. But I did feel really awkward whenever anyone said anything to me and everyone's attention suddenly turned towards me.

I'm starting a new course at work soon hopefully. I work with children, and have done for years, so I am going to do an NVQ so I have a formal qualification. Looking forward to it, as I like academic stuff. However, the rest of work isn't going so well. Too much work, too little respect from the boss.

I haven't been to my GP yet (I chickened out of course!). Most of me feels really strongly that I have AS, and that I don't need a dr to tell me that. Another part of me is worried that if I got a diagnosis I would use it as an excuse to treat people badly. A small part of me is afraid that the dr would say I haven't got AS, in which case what is wrong with me?

rlc wrote: Most of me feels really strongly that I have AS, and that I don't need a dr to tell me that. Another part of me is worried that if I got a diagnosis I would use it as an excuse to treat people badly. A small part of me is afraid that the dr would say I haven't got AS, in which case what is wrong with me?

Here's how I see it regarding a formal diagnosis of anything.

If a person thinks they have issues that they personally need to work on in order to make living life easier for themselves and those around them
then they should at least try to address those issues.

A diagnosis of any disorder or illness just means specific dysfunctions are identified
and can be a focus for getting help to get what ever therapy is needed to make either corrections
and/or make requests for reasonable accommodations to be made.

Reasonable accommodations are a two way street "I can do this if you're willing to adjust that" sort of thing. (In American sign language the literal translation of "reasonable accommodation" around here is "fair changes".)
If you need some fair changes in your life, a diagnosis (formal or not) gives people a clearer picture of what your actual challenge is.

macushla has it about right.

I have decided that I am going for a diagnosis so that I can know for sure. I think I have AS, but I don't know for sure. Also, a diagnosis of one sort or the other will hopefully give me some idea of where to go and what I need to do.

rlc, I know it is tough, but if you do want a diagnosis, you need to call your GP. Trust me, I almost chickened out myself. Thankfully, I didn't.