This is probably the most confusing post I have created, experienced and hope I am not alone.
First I want to state and ask if you suffer the same thing.
I can't picture in my head any past evens in picture or video, but I know I was there, and roughly when. Example, I was about 3 years old, I was in the first house I lived in, I know there was a wall 4 bricks high and there was a loose one that I picked up but dropped it on my foot, I remember it didn't hurt, and after my foot went black. I can not imagine it as a picture memory or a video memory for sum unknown reason
The next thing, related to the first, I can't picture what my mum looks like, I only saw her a few hours ago, I can describe roughly what she looks like, until I see her again I have no idea, but with people that are say my auntie who I only see twice a year, lets say we come across her in a shop, I have no idea who she is, and I come across as rude for not saying hello, if I could picture her I should be able to recognise her
This not only happens with people but everything, this is where things get strange, we all sleep, and I dream about loved ones I have held close to my heart (and lost) nightly but my dreams are in picture/video format, it gets even stranger, as I can't picture them, my brain has made up of people who I have no idea who they are. A good example is my nan, lost her over 20 years ago, I have pictures of her everywhere and has dark hair, a tanned skin but my "dream nan" has white hair different face pail skin, (this lady was the best). I somehow know she is my nan, she talks like her etc... but my scenery is perfect. Let's say I dream about school, every detail of the school is correct it's just people, their faces, body size are all "fictional". Am I really dreaming about my loved ones?