Having nothing to say, is this abnormal?

I know that speech impairments are more than common in the Asperger's community, but I really want, and pretty much need to know if anyone else is affected the way I am. Keep in mind that I constantly express implications that are misinterpreted, whether it's online or verbally, so I might say a thing or two that seems unintentionally out of place.

For as long as I've known I have these problems, I've been worried about how they'll affect my future. With my social skills as bad as they are, it seems that I was bound to never have friends. Except for the early childhood acquaintances, but those were short-lived. Above all else, the biggest problem is "blanking out." It's heavily dependent on mood, which is very complicating when you have other disorders that happen to take control of that. Sometimes, but not often, I find myself in a state of optimism where I can communicate much more fluently than normal. But most of the time I just can't say what I want to, because the words are coming slowly, and with difficulty. Even as I type this it's taking me an absurdly long time, I'm indecisive about every sentence. And going out in public, oh man, there it all goes. There just aren't any words on my mind.

To me, this seems like a burden that will complicate anything I try to do in life. But the question is, am I exaggerating? I can't find any way to be satisfied when I can't find any way to even achieve employment. I need to know what exceptions could be made for me, because right now, it's not looking like society is any place for me. Also, if anybody has had this issue but managed to alleviate it, I'd be delighted to hear your method.

Hello. I related to your post so I thought I would reply. There's nothing abnormal about having nothing to say. Some people are not too into speaking as much as others, and I don't think that would deem such a person as abnormal. There's so many different types of people in the world!

Aside from that, I can see you are concerned by having trouble speaking. I was in a similar situation years ago and it was very stressful for me. I have found a lot of help from being, more- or- less, on the autism diet. At the time, I was eliminating these foods from my diet for physical health reasons, but noticed a lot of improvement in my functioning and communication ability. I am much better with listening and communicating.

Journaling and reading books helps to put thoughts and feelings into words, which helped me get better at explaining myself to other people. All of this took time, but it has been worth the effort. I am a lot better at it, but I still have moments where I don't speak much. I have to make my peace with it.

There have been certain people in my life who I was determined to make them understand me, but for whatever reason, I could not get through to them no matter how hard I tried. Sometimes people need to go, I realize. Other, more caring people will come and replace them.

On a daily basis I interact with a lot of people due to my current situation. I don't have much of a problem with this, however it is rather confusing when you are constantly embarrassed by awkward behavior, constantly bothered by fear and severe paranoia which blocks every facet of your social awareness. When I do talk it is in long, confusing, incomprehensible strands and I often have great difficulty getting what I want out. Also, what I want to say never quite correlates with both my own thoughts and what others are saying. So the answer to your question is no, not for Asperger's syndrome. However, neurotypicals, there is (sometimes) an easier time organizing ideas and presenting logical structured responses and introducing a new topic to others, which I simply (and I assume some of you as well) am completely incapable of doing.

However, writing is your strongest tool in Asperger's, and in fact MANY other psychological differences that people experience. Writing, like music or other forms of expression, is information sustained in time so that it may be viewed from any angle, with any amount of attention given to each section of the passage. If you are capable of writing and practicing what you would like to say to others, I guarantee you you will have a far more comprehensible response.