do I have aspergers

I have always known I am not like other people and I never really fit in with any group of people. I found this website and I have been reading and posting a little on the avoidant personality forum some of the things people write on their are very much like me others do not fit, so I have been reading through different forums and this seems to be the closest.

I can not relate to anyone on an emotional level and it is really hard for me to communicate how I feel to others. Most of the time I do not have any feelings about someone or something but I think about things and try to figure them out. When I was going to school I got A's and B's in graduate level classes in physiology, biochemistry, exercise physiology but the most difficult class I ever took was a pass/ fail class on interpersonel communication. I definately get obsessed with different subjects, if a topic interested me I could spend a several hours a day learning about the subject until I have figured it out.

I am able to talk to people about things that interest me and I can dominate the conversation with facts and where I got my information and why I think I am correct and most people do not want to listen. I have been assigned to do presentations and if it is suppose to be 10 minutes and you need 20 refrences, my presentation will be 30 minutes after I cut it down and I will have over 100 refrences. I have not been in school for several years but I will still go to a library or on the internet to research various subjects. I will read every book I can find on a subject and even take notes. I assigned my self a project to figure out what makes people successfull and I read alot of biographies of world leaders, athletes, business leaders inventors,and than to compare that to something I read about serial killers as the biggest failures.

I do not know how to read other peoples body language or facial expressions.

I hate to be touched it even makes me uncomfortable when my mom touches me. Yet I wrestled in high school and it never bothered me in practice or matches. I recently met a girl and I enjoyed talking to her and being around her but she would touch me on my back or shoulder or but her hands around my arm and I know she was showing she cared for me and was interested in me but I did not know how to respond and I could not figure out how to communicate that to her.

I can not make eye contact with anyone, so people tell me I am lying and girls always think that I am checking them out. But I really do not care how anyone looks even myself. I sometimes get attention from other people for how I look and when others are trying to complement me I take it as they are ignoring what is important to me and they are putting me down.

People tend to bully me and pick on me because I do not fit in. More than once it has been the cool thing to do.

More than anything I want a job I can really work at to become better at and I really want to contribute to, I only end up places where I feel I am only collecting a check because the supervisors hold me back from me working to make the place better.


Rob

A couple of more things.

I definately have a problem with authority, ecspecially when I am not allowed to at least voice my opinion.

I do not have a proplem going out in public to stores or asking people when I need something, I just can not make any kind of emotional connection.

I really do not have emotions even when my grandpa died.