whats your life like

can viewers of this thread with aspergers take time from your lifes to describe how you live just like your age whether you are in some sort of relationship whats your job and so on just to forfill my curiousity about what sort of lifes "aspies" go on to lead.thanking you in advance.

Huh guess nobody feels comfortable talk about their own lifes,thats cool neither would i.

Hasn't even been a day yet and this topic is bit slow. But I'll be glad to try to answer your questions, and I'm sure others will post in the next few days.

I won't go into much detail so I don't bore anybody to death.

I am 18 years aged and what I should be doing seems quite clear. I should be geting ready for college, community or out-of-state. I should be looking for a job and going to parties with my friends. But with me, this is not the case. Nowhere near matter of fact.

I have no job, no social life and no college plans. My anxiety and other difficulties is pretty much in the driver seat. I don't go out of the house and have a hard time doing things on my own. So a job, out-of-state college and "partying" like a normal teenager is out of the question.

At times it seems that I am not very functioning, but it isn't just because of Autism. I do have other disorders which contributes to my current life style. (Just wanted to make it clear that Autism isn't my only deficit and people with Aspergers/Autism can lead very normal lives.)

Panic

1 thing id like to ask is well nobody here really seems to talk about sex now is this because its just not appriote on this site or do people with as not care about it p.s my spelling is crap i know.

I have no friends. I married my boyfriend of 4 years 2 years ago for financial aid only. He is like a leach, and we are not sexual. I hate sex because I hate being close to people, so I don't perticipate in self-tortue. I ask myself every day why I am still alive, logically all my bad decisions should have killed me by now. I love music, and my pet rats. If it wasn't for them I would not be here. I'm listening to starway to heaven, I love classic rock. I have no friends and have never had any. I am like a shadow on your wall, sometimes you must ask yourself if you are seeing me or just an illusion. I was also abused as a child. I hate my life. I hate myself. "in the tree by the brook there is a songbird who sings 'sometimes all of our thoughts are misleading'" Here is a poem I wrote about having Aspergers, you may find it informative:

"Lost in Asperger's"

Feel my intense need
And the warmth
as I bleed
And as those around me
Feed on my everlasting agony

I find that
The scene through my tears
is serene
As they stream
down my forlorn cheeks

yesterday is gone
And today is so long
But tomorrow
I will long
For the next day
and I cannot say

that all my hopes and dreams
are not in vein
Because I wish upon my solemn star
for everything
But nothing can ease the pain
of having no one
and understanding everything

Relationship-wise, I'm a complete disaster! I currently have no friends, as I find social interaction very difficult. Consequently, I tend to stay within the confines of my bedroom. I find it less painful this way.

I am also probably the oldest virgin in the UK at 23. I've never been on a date either. I guess I feel pretty mixed about this. On one hand, I feel frustrated that I don't have a woman to socialise or enjoy myself with. On the other, I would be absolutely terrified once a relationship reached the physical stage, and I had to get intimate with someone. Although I do have a normal sex drive, I don't know if I'd be able to cope with the pressure.

I'm currently studying at University. My ambition is to become an accountant. I love word games.

I go through stages where I feel 'down' but I wouldn't call myself suicidal or severely depressed. If I managed to improve socially, I believe that all of my problems would be solved anyway.


Mathall.