by guest » Mon Jan 09, 2006 2:36 pm
Hi have been reading allot of posts about people feeling like they are constantly the topic of conversation, i have felt like this the 7 years (not all the time obviously) , i had a massive episode 7 years ago thought i was being followed and filmed (really silly stuff), generally just for riducule factor very disconcerting experience, anyway have been on anti - phycotics since, i dont actually believe this is the problem, I think i have a anxiety disorder that puts me into a panic state which tends to warp my perception, unfortunately i'm stuck with this label, and medication i dont actually think helps me particularly, i have not seen a doctor for advice 3 or 4 years because i successfully got a university qaulification a have been working full time until 5 months ago(redundancy company closed). I still have this constant feeling of everything being about me. I have had private medical at two companies and on both occasions have been asked to leave or had unreasonably contract conditions imposed on me , i would like to get rid of this label find some way of dealing better with my anxiety and get my life back to where it was before private medical (2 years ago) i work in small niche programming language where most people know each other, but again i going down the same paranoic thought process the reality i dont really know happened over past couple of years. Has anyone had any similar experiences.