Hi people, nice forum you have here.
I’m a 22 year old male, in fairly good physical health.
Ok, my situation is complicated because I seem to suffer symptoms I can't seem to explain properly. I was diagnosed with anxiety about 15 months ago. My doctor prescribed me Celexa. From my first dose I started experiencing extreme anxiety and panic and I gave up taking it after a few months.
I’ll try and list my symptoms physical to mental.
Fluttering feeling in my chest, almost constantly.
Occasional Electric shock feeling in my head 99% of the time when I’m in bed.
Trembling, jerky muscle movements. Like when I sit up in bed I will kind of jerk in stages. Or if I’m stood up my legs will tremble badly even if I’m not feeling anxious.
Clammy hands.
Feeling out of breath.
Sleep Paralasys.
My anxiety seems to have different stages, these seem to be.
Anxious (This is normal everyday. I’ll stay indoors and sit at the computer putting off things that should be done.)
Very Anxious (I’ll lock my self away for days at a time, until my levels come down again.)
Beyond anxious (I lose my head all together, sometimes feels as though I’m lapsing in and out of consciousness, dizzy, sick, lots of pressure in my head, can’t sleep, bad dreams, unable to speak properly, can’t eat, short attention span, intense fear of visitors disturbing me. If somehow they come in, I am guaranteed to have a panic attack, unable to stop racing thoughts, unable to hear properly (sounds sometimes like I’m underwater) and very on edge, the slightest noise will make me jump. This will last for 2-10 days.
I have lost almost all interest to spend time with my friends but I force my self to go out. I have been drinking lots when I go out to ease the anxiety and basically be more out going. I have difficulty speaking to any one even my parents without the anxiety pounding my brain.
It’s like I have turned into an emotionless, boring freak and I hate it. I do think about suicide but never seriously considered it so that isn’t a worry. Life is just so boring when I’m like this. I used to be really outgoing and had heaps of fun.
I have tried Celexa and it made me panic, I’m now terrified of most medications especially SSRI’s. I have a draw full of tablets that I just refused to take. I have seen one psychologist; she made me feel better about my self but didn't really help in the long run.
I’m running out of ways to cope and I really don’t want medication which limits ways of getting help.
Do I sound like someone with an anxiety problem or could there be something else going on too? I can’t help but feel the doctor misdiagnosed me.
Any help would be greatly appreciated.