CAN SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME WITH THIS PROBLEM?

Hello Everyone,

I have had severe anxiety, well, as far as I can remember. One of my big things is that I will worry about things from my past. Stupid things! Things that I can't change. I will sit there and dwell on something I did wrong in my past, and build it into this huge cluster. It's like I'm trying to solve a math problem with no answer in my head.

There is something I'm dwelling on right now, and I just want to ask it, hoping I can get an honest answer that will reassure me. So, here it goes.

I have a dog, Shasta, who I love dearly. I've had her ever since I was 13-years-old. As a kid, I would let her follow me everywhere. Well, most of you know how dogs are. They have no problem chewing up your stuff when you're not looking, licking people constantly, and they definitely have no problem sticking their nose in your crotch!

Well, Shasta would always come into my room in the morning when I was getting dressed for school, and I didn't mind. She would try to sniff me (when I was nude), and I would just push her away going, "No, Shasta, no girl". Typical stuff.

One day when I was 14-years-old, I was sitting on the edge of my bed putting my under garments on, and my legs were not completely closed together. Shasta, as usual, was trying to sniff me in my private area, and I kept pushing her away. Well, being a stupid kid, not knowing better, and just taunting my dog, I let her come over to me and sniff for a second. She then went to lick the outside of my private area, and I believe she touched it only on the outside and only a little, and I immediately pushed her away once I had realized what she was doing.

At the time, I had no idea what bestiality (having sexual relations with an animal) was. I never had any attraction to my dog, and I wasn't aroused. It's not like I was letting my dog perform oral sex on me, nor have I ever touched my dog in such a way. That's not my sexual preference at all, and I have no intentions of ever trying it.

So, what I'm asking is..did I commit bestiality? I mean, my dog licked the outside slightly, but like I said, as soon as I realized what she was doing, I immediately pushed her away. She didn't even lick the interior of my private.

I, personally, don't think this is bestiality at all. I think it was just some childish act, and I'm sure I'm not the only one who has experienced this before. But for whatever reason, I worry about it to the point I psych myself out!

I'm just looking for some encouragement, and some reassurance. Hopefully others will see it as I do, and I can convince myself that I didn't commit bestiality.

PS, just some background information on me...I was diagnosed and started therapy for Generalized Anxiety Disorder back in June of 2005, and I started taking medication in October of 2005.

It's hard to be sure how serious your post is, but I'll put it in perspective.

A few days ago a man was arrested in Klawock, AK. He had grabbed a dog from town, brought it into the woods, taped it's mouth shut, and raped it. Because having sex with a dog is not illegal in Alaska, he was only charged with criminal mischief.

Of course, once the little children start dissapearing from Juneau, one by one, eventually someone will see the wisdom in making it illegal to kidnap and sodomize dogs.

I doubt that you are on the same path that person is on.

I agree with toad: What happened in your past is nothing like the type of thing that can (and do) happen to animals. It was just a 'childish act', as you said.

When distressing thoughts enter your head in the way that you have described, it is best to just dismiss them as irrelecvant and then just get on with your life. In effect, say to yourself: "I don't care [about the distressing though]". It may take a while to be able to do this effectively but keep thinking about it. You can - and will - be a strong person and will not let these things drag you down.

Kevin.

You were a young teenager, and still exploring life. I don't think it's in-human for us to do things that are considered..well..I really wouldn't know how to label that, but wierd. I have read some fantasy books about unicorns turning into human women and then having intercourse with the hero, etc. it's just a human fantasy type thing I guess, although I would never tell anyone lol.

So now just think of it this way:
Did you do it again? No.
Are you still doing it and/or considering having that happen again? No.
So the truth of the matter is that if you happened to actually take pleasure in it and continued with the situation well then yes I would say you need to talk to your therapist about it.
If not then I wouldn't worry about it and label myself as a person who endulges in beastialty.

We all do things or have done things in our lives that make us think we are sick. If it's something that a person is still doing, they don't see anything wrong with it. That is why they continue with it.
Peace out chica.

As far as I know sex with animals is against the law because the animal can't give consent. That doesn't stop my boyfriend's parents' jack russell from attacking my unconsenting leg every time I visit them.

Wouldn't worry about it. You didn't do anything cruel or forceful and therefore against the law.