My Picturesque View Spoilt by A Broken Window

Out of the Blue my body started to give me Language.
And as We all do so.. We back track through Our Memories of the few days past.


“am I hungover?”
It feels though I am, but. NO!, by My standards.. I didn’t drink that much last night to feel like this??


“Food poisoning!?”
Well I don’t know!..
No cold sweats, but. I do feel niggled by this claustrophobic dampness on My skin.

I don’t Ache, but. I do feel extra weight on My skeleton..(weird??)

Rotten guts?.. Nope. Just been for a good clear-out., and yeahp!! nout wrong there.


“could it be the start of A Cold, Flu, Virus or something the Human Race has never had or seen before ”
Check Temperature.. (ok)

Check Tongue.. (ok) …Teeth need A good scrub though.

Sleep Hygiene.. (ok ..Ish) …It took Me A bit longer today to get out of My Pitt.

Head Congestion.. (nope)

Check Throat, Glands and Ears.. (nope)


Right.. This Body-Language is becoming more Profound and feels Combative to Me in A narky, Riddle speaking Annoyance.
So I talk to Myself.. “Hello!!, Body. Tell Me in A Language that I bloody understand. What’s Wrong with Yah!!
I’m racking My Mind as to what I’ve done to piss You off!! because. I really feel Frightened, that.. suddenly I’m going to pass-out, collapse in places when people are around Me but NO one’s there kinder-thing.”



Aiman
Oct 2, 2014
Trapped inside

When loneliness consumes you
that's when your true feelings
and thoughts start
to push through
In the deepest darkest part
of your mind
Questions after questions
begin to feel up inside
What's worse is you still hope
for them to go away
But the harder you try
the longer they stay
You've lost your sanity
you've lost all control
What's left are your awful thoughts
and your numbing soul
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“is there anything in My social-life, over the last few Months that I consciously understand to be A Factual Question that requires an Answer!!”
My Brother.. = Same $#%^ Different Day!!, but. He’s My Brother and He’s A Knobb-end. He has A strange Love for Me. …That isn’t it.

Mum + Dad.. Well they have had A few arguments recently. More than normal, but hey.. I’ve move out years ago. Less agro for Me to take scores for them.

My Groovy Mate Dave.. She’s (Mad as A box of Frogs!!) and I guess that, that her Madness takes Me away from the Unrelenting Harshness of Sanity.

My Nephew.. Well regardless of how I am and where I am in life., My lil Dude Nephew will be influenced and He will hopefully learn from My mistakes. (either I make loads of mistakes in my life and He will be wiser beyond His years or, for Me to make as few mistakes as possible. And then I will worry about Him His whole life!!) He’s is now only 04 years old. ????


Christopher Lowe
Oct 1, 2014
Trapped

If I stop and think
Just a second
Maybe I can escape
But then I realize
Maybe I'm not trapped
By then it's to late
I'm already in this prison of thoughts


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Jees-Louise Dude. This Body-Language Just will not leave Me alone.
I’ve things I need to do Today.
And the way My body feels!!
This isn’t physical introductions that is causing Me this Yucky Grossness.
But the way I’m feeling!! is, I just want to…


TL Sipple

May 1, 2014
Trapped

Can I hide my face
under the covers
and keep the thoughts
from taking over?
I am bewildered and lonely.
I am stuck in a trance that keeps me
from accomplishing anything
that is deemed worthy.
I am forced to reckon with the
disturbing and confusing.
What the hell am I doing
with my life right now?
I am on an endless cycle
of just going through the motions.
It's me just existing. It's not me
really living.
It's exhausting.
I don't know how to change it.
I feel trapped.
TL Sipple
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Right. I’ve just cleared My schedule for the next Few days. I told a few Porky-pies to some of My appointments.
“What to do next??”


vague rememberance
May 12, 2014
trapped

White walls, white floor, white ceiling.
Stuck in this cage I cant bare the feeling.
I scream for help but no one hears,
As I sit I drown in tears.
Running fast, and panting hard only makes me panic more.
Out the door, down the hall, returning to the same door.
Out the door, down the hall, returning to the same door.
Door, hall, door.
Door, hall, door.
As I wallow in my sorrows my thoughts of escaping end.
Every time I leave I end up at the same door.
I dont know where to go anymore.


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Obviously trying to get My head down for A couple hours is like telling a Camel to $#%^ on A toilet. I just want to Escape this overwhelmingly Ugliness of Body-Language. AAAAARRRRRHHHHH.
Food isn’t helping, well maybe if I could eat something then maybe..?? These so-called ‘Anti-Sickness’ pills aint much kop either!!
I need to Digress from this $#%^ mind and body. It’s doing My swede in. “What to do, what to do, to do. Think, Think, Think.”
AAAAAARRRRHHH!!, the more I think, the worse My Body feel’s like it’s gonna drop like A sack of Spuds. ….Ah!! Television.


carolina haraki
Jun 13, 2014
Trapped inside
My soul is trapped
Inside my dreams
My bones and skin
Can’t make me feel
I’m standing numb
As feelings sleep
Inside my cold and fragile heart
I’m either trapped inside myself
Or lost in an entangled world.
My soul is trapped
Inside my dreams
My bones and skin
Can’t make me feel
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TV!? NO good.
Christ, I feel weird in My Mind and Hungover in Body!! Maybe some fresh air will clear the cobwebs? Anyways. I need to pop to the Local for some bits ‘n pieces.
………………………………………..!!!
HOLY MOTHER AND ###$!!! What the ###$ happened there?? Jesus I think I’m having A bloody panic attack.
Let’s just rewind for A mo..
You left the Gaff but the click of the Front Door Lock stuck in My Mind for some peculiar unknown reason.
It’s A fair trek to the shop. But it felt closer.
On the way down to the shop, nearly everything was grabbing My attention. (odd).
….
Now My memory is starting to fade.
Well one good thing has come from this freaky day so far.. this little panic attack thingymebobby that I’ve just experienced for a short space in My life!?!, at least I don't feel Sluggish, Faint and like I wanna puke.



oops!! I spoke to soon…


Aditya Shankar
Apr 16, 2015
Imagine a trapped fly

Imagine being a trapped fly
Resigning to a trapped life.
Your limbs flail about in despair
Your wings buzz in a futile escape attempt.
Indignation at first, that rapidly fades
Into confusion, anxiety, fear clutching your insides
Till you lose all hope, silently wait to die
And you realise
It's the same scared light you see in man's eyes.
Imagine...being a trapped fly
Resigning to a trapped life.
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That was weird!! I was dry-reaching!, nout came up. So it definitely isn’t A physical Body Rejection. But hey.. Groovy, that helped. Now I feel !!
Now then.. lets try having A kip for A bit., and Maybe I’ll have My tea when I wake up later.


lost girl
Sep 4, 2014
trapped

I am trapped
in a pit full of
sad smiles and
broken promises.
(a.d)
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…Ring Ring, Ring, Ring
…Ding-Dong, Ding-dong, Ding-Dong
(Kids Laughing, Playing outside, Kids arguing, Kids Laughing)
…Tick-Tock, Tick-Tock, Tick-Tock

…Toss ‘n Turn, Toss ‘n Turn, Toss ‘n Turn…

AC
Jan 21, 2015
Trapped

Why do I feel so trapped,
when I'm so free?
Free to do what I choose with my life,
But trapped, chained to the expectations of society.
A.C
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For ###$.
Right.. lets close the window and curtains, disarm that ######6 door bell. Ok maybe not the phone?? just in case!! I think some chilled softly spoken music will calm me and help me drift off from this crappy day!?!
…………
Sikth.
Why can I not sleep?
Why am I turning?
Why are all the trees burning?
Forest fires, crooked liars,
Why am I so sullen and drained?
Wait for your red skies,
Wait for the red skies,
Do you know how it feels to be alive?
Let me know, let me know how it feel…
When will the forest speak?
When the trees are dried up and way to weak?

I still can’t sleep. I still can’t sleep. I still can’t sleep.
A million minds and a million voices
A million thoughts and only one choice.
The need to find peace.


Rebel Heart
May 26, 2014
Trapped

As the wind rushes by the trees,
The birds go chirping, buzz go the bees,
And the salty air lingers by the seas.
Though I yearn to touch the sun,
And wish to have some fun,
I am trapped and cannot run.
Run from darkness I desire,
But I'm already consumed by this deadly fire,
And am trapped in my room like a flat tire.
The doors are wide open an no chains hold me in place,
But I'm just tired of running this way-too-long race,
And I no longer want to face,
This "wonderful" world of greed and no grace.
Trapped I am and trapped I'll stay,
For the world refuses to change its ways,
And I can't handle anymore false rays,
Plus I can't do anything to help anyways.
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02:37am
Groovy!, managed about 04 hours of kip.
Lets breakout the Laptop and check for when this supposedly ‘H Bomb’ is gonna equal human-shit out.. My money’s on some Bat-Shit-Crazy God-Fearing-Fanatic, with an itchy trigger-happy-finger on that big red G-spot!!
………………… <Power On>

RazanSidErani
Dec 18, 2014
Trapped

I've seen scarier things,
Only seldom some have made sense.
The rest is rather amusing,
It'll leave you awake, thinking,
Chewing in on your insides for hours.
And the chorus keeps reminding you.
Singing the last night's lullaby.
"No there isn't any hope,
Your were born here and here will you die,
Clothed in your misery,
Shackled to the fetters of your mind."
I've seen scarier things in life,
But none scarier than that.
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Lets ‘GOOGLE’ this day of mine and see what random $#%^. Some Loner, Self-Abusing Numpty who won’t av A clue outside of His paedophile porn filled mind.
And of we go> <searching>

What Are the Types of Anxiety Disorders?
There are several kinds, including:
Panic disorder. People with this condition have feelings of terror that strike suddenly and repeatedly with no warning. Other symptoms of a panic attack include sweating, chest pain, palpitations (unusually strong or irregular heartbeats), and a feeling of choking. It can feel like you’re having a heart attack or "going crazy."
Social anxiety disorder. Also called social phobia, this involves overwhelming worry and self-consciousness about everyday social situations. The worry often centers on a fear of being judged by others, or behaving in a way that might cause embarrassment or lead to ridicule.
Specific phobias. These are intense fears of a specific object or situation, such as heights or flying. The level of fear is usually inappropriate to the situation and may cause you to avoid common, everyday situations.
Generalized anxiety disorder. This is excessive, unrealistic worry and tension, even if there's little or nothing to provoke the anxiety.

What Are the Symptoms of Anxiety Disorders?
It depends on the type of anxiety disorder, but general symptoms include:
Feelings of panic, fear, and uneasiness
Problems sleeping
Cold or sweaty hands or feet
Shortness of breath
Heart palpitations
Not being able to be still and calm
Dry mouth
Numbness or tingling in the hands or feet
Nausea
Muscle tension
Dizziness


Silence Screamz
Nov 23, 2014
Closet Trapped

Closet trapped
Words on the wall
I see the world
End of it all
Crazy place
Everything defined
Meanings are haunted
Darkness confined
Locked and afraid
Windows can't see
Crying my eyes out
Alone let me be
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AHH BOLLOCKS!!
OHH WELL. LIKE ‘THE WISE MAN’ ONCE SAID.. “WHAT DOES NOT KILL YOU IN AN INSTANT WILL ONLY MAKE ‘YOU’ STRONGER FOR THE GREATER GOOD!!”