Extreme Paranoia

I feel like somebody is stalking me. At night, I hear things under my bed...clattering, shaking. In the mornings, I hear things in the bathroom and kitchen. I have a fear of windows, and waking up to a suicide/murder scene, and I fear coming home to one. I fear being alone, because, maybe, I am not as alone as I think. This started at a young age, and I fear my weird drawings I made a few months ago. I fear sleep, I fear mornings, evenings, the dark, and being alone, and even mirrors. It sucks being a narssist fearing mirrors. Just saying.

Meds aren't an option, and therapy doesn't help.

Any suggestions?

Starting to see things. Not just black blobs, but white shapes. This is getting creepy and I started getting creepy notes and dreams and hallucinations. Last night I heard something under my bed. I am leaving my house for the weekend so I can calm down. I think that might help me out. Bye for now

-MentalBoy