if u have time to read, please do xox

i'm not sure if this is in the right forum because i'm not sure what it is, but here it goes;

I never know when it’s going to hit and it’s happened for as long as I can remember, probably 4 or 5 was the first time, and it used to last longer. It last happened a few nights ago as I was trying to get to sleep. It’s horrible, from my throat to my stomach lurches and goes numb, I can’t feel my body, it feels like my body has disappeared and isn't actually touching whatever i'm trying to do.

Something in my mind keeps telling me I don’t belong here. I have a horrible sense that I shouldn’t be on earth, I shouldn’t have this body. Usually it upsets me to a point where I start to cry,it doesn’t often happen, every now and again but I just want to know what it is, I want to know why I feel like this.


xox

Hi,

first of all i sympathize and i emphatize with you. From what it sounds is sounds like PANIC/ANXIETY attack. but i cannot does as i am not a therapist. but from a shared experience point of view,

How is your breathing during the situation,
When does it commoly happen?
Can you Talk when it happens?
Do you get afraid from the more thoughts you think?

if you can explain more in detail it would be great!