RE: Possible anxiety disorder?

Hi,

I recently (about a month and a half ago) came back from university, where I had a rather frightening episode. I was in the midst of studying for exams, and had two the next day, and woke up with cuts all over my arms. I could remember, but not very well, cutting myself with a razor during the night. I also could remember thinking that I could not possibly write the two exams the next day, as I would no doubt fail. I must have blacked out or something, because I found myself in bed the next morning. I did write the two exams, and did well, but a few weeks ago I fell into serious depression, coupled with bouts of anxiety--I couldn't read, nothing excited me, etc. At about this time I started to cut myself again, and continue to have "cutting" thoughts. I have also started a new job which I am not comfortable with at all, and feel inept at, though it is a simple secretarial position. I have bouts of anxiety at work, can't concentrate, and make stupid mistakes. Quite recently (yesterday), I became erratic, started to rant (not at work!), and today fell into depression and deep anxiety. I am really not sure what I should do. Any help would be much appreciated.

P.S. I should also add that I have those so-called intrusive thoughts--generally at night, I keep thinking I will see someone who has been hanged/hanged himself, and other sorts of things like that. Sorry to disturb anyone who reads this post.

I have also had trouble sleeping--I do sleep, but continue to wake up in the night, and today I woke up thinking it was 2 pm in the afternoon, when it was really 8 am.

see a doc who is good for anxiety cases, ask local pharmacists to recommend one
maybe print out your post and take it for him to read
an antidepressant med such as prozac may well help for depression and anxiety but start on a low dose and work up to reduce early side effects
lots of info about cutting on the net, its quite popular, many do it

unwanted thoughts are often from OCD, an anxiety disorder
it would help a lot to do some exercise, take long walks and learn new ways of relaxing and calming yourself
also try to get some valium type meds for the bad days

some draw red lines on their skin instead of cutting