up and down days

Hey folks, I have found message boards to be helpfull in most walks of my life of late, so I thought why not share my store of my brain issues on here and maybe someone is in the same boat.

I am a 27 year old male, and I had a terrible episode five summers ago with anxiety. It lasted the entire summer, every day, was hell really. I couldn't go into stores, restaurants, malls without triggering panic attacks and feelings of unease. I couldn't deal with people at my work. My social life became strained. At that point of my life I was partying a lot in the club scene, drinking as well as flipping the odd E.

I should have known better as my mother had to quit teaching due to an anxiety order, and these things are genetic as well know.

Anyways, I was prescribed Amytryptyline, and this helped greatly, to the point where I almost forgot about it. I ran out one day a couple years ago and never refilled the prescription.

Fast forward until last spring, all the symptoms reapeared, even though I had sobered up (shy of the odd beer drinking night here and there) gotten a proper routine with regards to sleep and diet, had (still have thankfully) a great girlfriend.

So I tried a new medication, Citalopram (20MG), and this made me feel like a brand new person. Anxiety reduced 90%, I have never felt this relaxed and have a very positive outlook on the future. I have no problems dealing with my customers and can tackle pretty much any task worry free.

However, this is my latest problem.

I will have a tremendously good day where I get a tonne done at work and feel fantastic. The day goes in great, I cook dinner, chat with the girlfriend, call friends up etc etc.

Then the next day I feel like garbage. I call it a "fuzzy headed" day. I am very irritable, exhausted, little motivation, feel overhwelmed at the slightest task, and some symptoms of anxiety return when I am in public places. However the + side to having a day like this is the guarantee that the NEXT day will be another great one. Its almost predictable how I am going to feel the next day before I even go to bed. I am fortunate enough to be self employed and can attach certain tasks to "good" and "bad" days. I am having a fuzzy headed day as I type this.

Anyone have any advice?

thanks in advance

-Bill

It was the ecstasy dude. I've been dealing with it for the past six years. Still haven't found any good meds. Klonopin has helped a llittle. E also triggered my ocd which is in full bloom right now . It sounds like you might be a little bipolar. I would talk to your doctor about that. But like I said this might all be ecstasy related. Have you done any research on long-term effects of ecstasy?

yea man it was defenetely the ecstacy I used it for a while and one day had a bad roll and ever since I have had panic disorder don't take meds jut tell yourself and god your sorry and forget about and the symptoms go away trust me I go throught it from ecstacy.

Yes but assuming the next day will be bad...you're programming your mind to believe that so it will.