Ways of Controlling Murderous Rage, Urges and Impules

Mr. No One wrote: It definitely is triggered by something. Have you found the root of the impulses. If I get urges like those they don't seem to last long. Do yours?

Honestly it depends. Sometimes they last for a few mins then at times last hours, or even a day. I have not found the root of my impulses, its just a strange feeling when you try to describe it. Actually you cant describe it, but it feels calm, relaxed but at the same time thinking and ready to spring into action. Like I said its strange. Now that I think about it, the cause of my urges are just as various. They don't just start from a particular instance.

Punching things helps, like walls, punching bags, or punching yourself Fight Club style.

Can you channel it? Like going hunting in a forest?

Strange Collage Guy wrote:Honestly it depends. Sometimes they last for a few mins then at times last hours, or even a day. I have not found the root of my impulses, its just a strange feeling when you try to describe it. Actually you cant describe it, but it feels calm, relaxed but at the same time thinking and ready to spring into action. Like I said its strange. Now that I think about it, the cause of my urges are just as various. They don't just start from a particular instance.

It's not as unusual as you'd think. It feels the same way for me, and several others here. The clam, relaxed, intensely focused feeling. Like you're completely on point, but buzzing with some kind of energy, like you just want to destroy something, somebody, anybody. It almost feels meditative, but at the same time, it feels like if somebody so much as looks at you wrong, you'd tear them to pieces.

Yeah - happens a lot.

KenWalker wrote:Can you channel it? Like going hunting in a forest?

Damn, I wish I could go hunting. Not even a hunting spot near me.

fiveintime wrote:It's not as unusual as you'd think. It feels the same way for me, and several others here. The clam, relaxed, intensely focused feeling. Like you're completely on point, but buzzing with some kind of energy, like you just want to destroy something, somebody, anybody. It almost feels meditative, but at the same time, it feels like if somebody so much as looks at you wrong, you'd tear them to pieces.

Yeah - happens a lot.

Yeah, its that kind of feeling. especially the focused part.

Paint ball?
One

onebravegirl wrote:Paint ball?
One

Fun, I got a bb gun sniper rifle. Its cool. But not enough.

You could pick up crime fighting and kill bad guys.

Strange Collage Guy wrote:Well as the title of the thread states I was searching for different ways to control these things, but to no avail could not find anything helpful. I was wondering if the members in this part of the forum had there own ways or heard useful methods of controlling them. Really needed. Thank you--

While it's all good and well to search for an alternative release as a means of controlling the urges (I've been searching for one myself, but the things that use to work don't satisfy the homicidal 'cravings' anymore), I think it is actually better to find the root cause of the problem and deal with that. That is why I'm going back into therapy. Although I don't see anything wrong with killing a few people who would be better off dead anyway, the law disagrees, so searching for a way to control the urges is good, but the satisfaction you may feel now won't last forever if your urges are strong. Sooner or later you're going to have find another alternative. The only other option, without resorting to murder, is to either accept the fact that you're always going to feel this way and just live with it or try to find the real reason why you're experiencing the urges and deal with that head on.

I'm not bothered by it anymore. I've had intense homicidal thoughts constantly for almost a decade now. Just try to remember how irrational it is, because acting on it will send you to prison for life. It's not worth trying your life away. Just laugh it off, try not to let it bother you, think of it as a secret inside joke you have with yourself.