Wanting people to fear you

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Thanks. So I guess that 'fine" was a go-ahead for the list? If not you can just skip it I guess.

- I honestly don't feel anything, no emotions when it concerns other people. Natural disasters on tv, those "save the children" stuff, relatives dying have no effect on me. The only times I've cried is when I'm crying for myself.

-I think I'm not as well-off as I should be because of my childhood, or my parents. They deprived me of a good life probably because they weren't wealthy. It's always somebody else's fault.

-I know exactly what to say to which people, and someone once called me "silvertongued". Once I get my sights set on something, even like a storybook, I "manipulate" everyone and anyone to get that book. Or else I can't sleep at night.

-I have no idea why killing people is wrong other than getting jailed. Like I see no wrong in doing it at all.

-People don't seem like people to me. Sometimes theey don't seem real, or like I'm not real. Other people are like...objects. Doesn't matter if they are hurt or used.

-I lie alot. Like everyday, even for no reason sometimes. I feel a little pleased everytime I get away with a lie.

-When I act cheerful or hopeful or excited, angry, I don't feel anything, you know? Like there's this emptiness. When I feel something it's usually envy, this deep rage, boredom, or this aching sadness because sometimes I realise I don't know the meaning of the word "happiness".

-Because I "manipulate" people and I know how they are, I act differently around the cliques in my school. By doing that well, I get protection from the mean kids, my teachers are impressed by how the nerds think I'm so studious, and my main group of friends get me pretty much any birthday present I want. I've also never gotten in trouble at school and even then I'm let off with hardly a scolding.

I put the word manipulation in quotations because I'm not sure if you would consider it manipulating, but it sure feels like it. Thanks again.

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I've barely read this thread, but it's obvious.

You just sound like a run-of-the-mill angsty entitled teen to me. With a severe inferiority complex, and a great need for attention, despite your proclamations. You try way too hard, and your need to convince gives you away.

Sorry to let you down, miss. You don't get to be special.

Oh no, what now?!?

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No one gets to be special.





Except yours truly, that is.

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Sure, if being deserving of pity is supposed to be scary.

Which I suppose it is.

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Just curious, how does this sound like Aspergers? I mean, I understand body language, facial expressions; I use them actually. I detect double meanings and all too. Well let's say Asperger's isn't an option. What do you think?